Feminist fiction, Australian; Sex role -- Fiction; Short stories, Australian; Women -- Fiction
And presently she hears the sharp thrust of his spade above the bee's
hum, leaf rustle, and the myriad late summer sounds that thrill through
the air. It irritates her almost to screaming point; there is a
practical non-sympathy about it; she can distinguish the regular one,
two, three, the thrust, interval, then pat, pat, on the upturned sod.
To-day she wants some one, and her thoughts wander to, and she wonders
what, the gray-eyed man who never misunderstands her, would say to her.
Oh, she wants some one so badly to soothe her; and she yearns for the
little mother who is twenty years under the daisies,--the little mother
who is a faint memory strengthened by a daguerreotype in which she
sits with silk-mittened hands primly crossed on the lap of her moiré
gown, a diamond brooch fastening the black-velvet ribbon crossed so
stiffly over her lace collar, the shining tender eyes looking steadily
out, and her hair in the fashion of fifty-six. How that spade dominates
over every sound! and what a sickening pain she has, an odd pain; she
never felt it before. Supposing she were to die, she tries to fancy
how she would look; they would be sure to plaster her curls down. He
might be digging her grave--no, it is the patch where the early peas
grew, the peas that were eaten with the twelve weeks' ducklings: she
remembers them, little fluffy golden balls with waxen bills, and such
dainty paddles,--remembers holding an egg to her ear and listening to
it cheep inside before even there was a chip in the shell. Strange how
things come to life! What! she sits bolt upright and holds tightly to
the chair, and a questioning, awesome look comes over her face; and
then the quick blood creeps up through her olive skin right up to her
temples, and she buries her face in her hands and sits so a long time.
The maid comes in and watches her curiously, and moves softly about.
The look in her eyes is the look of a faithful dog, and she loves her
with the same rare fidelity. She hesitates, then goes into the bedroom
and stands thoughtfully, with her hands clasped over her breast. She is
a tall, thin, flat-waisted woman, with misty blue eyes and a receding
chin. Her hair is pretty. She turns as her mistress comes in, with an
expectant look on her face. She has taken up a nightgown, but holds it
idly.
"Lizzie, had you ever a child?"
The girl's long left hand is ringless; yet she asks it with a quiet
insistence, as if she knew what the answer would be, and her odd
eyes read her face with an almost cruel steadiness. The girl flushes
painfully, and then whitens; her very eyes seem to pale, and her under
lip twitches as she jerks out huskily,--
"Yes!"
"What happened to it?"
"It died, M'am."
"Poor thing! Poor old Liz!"
She pats the girl's hand softly, and the latter stands dumbly and looks
down at both hands, as if fearful to break the wonder of a caress. She
whispers hesitatingly,--
"Have you--have you any little things left?"
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