English fiction -- 20th century; Short stories, English
“Get out of her life, if you’re honest, an’ doan’t whine to me ’bout
things being beyond mendin’! Go! Turn your back on her an’ let the
dazzle of ’e fade out of her eyes an’ out of her mind. You knaw so well
as me, that it ban’t beyond mendin’. She promised to marry me ’fore ever
she seed the shadow of you; an’ you knawed it from the fust moment you
set eyes on her; an’ yet you went on an’ sinked from manhood into this.
You’m a whole cowardice o’ curs in the skin o’ one man, damn you!”
“You do right to curse. You will never feel greater contempt for me than
I do for myself. I cannot go away. It is impossible—wholly above my
strength. And the position is beyond mending, despite what you say—both
for Sarah and for me. It is no crime in her to love me; the fault is
mine, and if I had sworn on my hope of salvation to you, I should have
broken my oath as I did my promise. Measure my punishment—that is all
you can do; and I won’t flinch from it.”
“She loves you—better’n what she do me? It’s come to that; an’ you ax me
to measure your punishment! You pitiful wretch! You know you’m safe
enough now. She loves you better’n me. Theer’s your safety. ‘Struth!
I could smash your bones like rotten wood, an’ you know it; but she loves
you better’n me; an’ who be I to crack her painted china wi’ my rough
cloam? I doan’t love her no less—anyways not so little as to bruise you,
an’ that you knowed afore you spoke. Get out o’ my sight an’ may worse
fall on you than ever I would bring. May the thing you’ve done breed an’
bite an’ sap the heart out of ’e like a canker worm; may it bring thorns
to your roses, an’ death to your hopes, an’ storms to your skies; may it
fill your cup wi’ gall an’ bend your back afore your time an’ sting you
on your death-bed. May it do all that, an’ more, so as you’ll mind this
hour an’ know if I’d scatted your lying brains abroad an’ killed ’e,
’twould have been kinder than to let you live!”
“I have deserved your hardest words; but forgive her—now that you yield
her up; forgive her if ever you loved her, for the fault was none of
hers.”
“You can think for her, can ’e? You can stand between me an’ her to
shield her against the man as would have faced fire an’ water an’ all
hell’s delights for her ever since she was a li’l dinky maid! You ax me
to forgive her—you? Christ A’mighty! she’m a lucky woman to have a man
of your metal to stand up for her against me!”
“I didn’t mean that, Aggett; only I feared—”
“Doan’t I love her tu, you smooth-faced fule? Do ’e think one hair of
her ban’t so precious to me as to you? Do ’e think because she’ve took
your poison I’m mazed tu? I’ve got to live my life wi’out her; I’ve got
to bide all my days wi’out her—that’s enough. But she’d have loved me
still if she could. Ban’t her sin that you poured magic in her cup;
ban’t her sin that she won’t wear glass beads no more now she thinks
she’ve found a strong o’ di’monds.”
Public-domain text, read in full here on John Shaqi.
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