English fiction -- 20th century; Short stories, English
“An’ in my gert quandary I was gwaine in to Mother Gurney here. She’s
juggled wi’ my life afore, seemin’ly, an’ if any knows what’s to be the
end of it, ’tis her, I should think. I want to hear what’s right an’
proper. I’m so weary of my days as you. Life an’ love be gall-bitter
this way. Oh, Jan, can’t ’e say nought to comfort me? ’Tis more’n I can
bear.”
She was hysterical, and he flung down his bundle and sat beside her and
tried to bring some peace to her spirit. His heart was full for her and
he spoke eagerly. Then he saw the gold and coral on her finger and
stopped talking and put his elbows on his knees and his big sandy head
down on his hands.
“’Twas what you done, ’twas same as what you done,” she said. “You left
me for love of me; why can’t I leave Tim for love of him?”
“’Tis axin’ a woman to much.”
A long silence reigned. Wind-blown ponies stamped and snorted close at
hand, and from a window in the neighbouring cottage a sharp eye watched
the man and woman. Gammer was counting the chances of a customer,
possibly two.
Fired with a glimmer of the hope that can never perish while the maid is
free, John Aggett argued the advantages of obedience to Farmer Chave. He
felt himself base in this, but Sarah was under his eyes, within reach of
his arm. Her hot tears were on his hand.
“’Tis for you I be thinkin’, though you might say ’twas two words for
myself an’ but one for you. I wants your sorrow turned into joy, Sally,
if it’s a thing can be done. Leave me out—theer—now I’m not thinkin’ for
myself at all. Leave me out, an’ leave him out, an’ bide a maid till the
right man finds ’e. I lay he haven’t crossed your path yet. Give young
Chave up for your own sake, if not his, an’ look life in the face again
free.”
He continued fitfully in this strain, quenching his own dim hope
remorselessly as he spoke, and she, hearing little save the drone of his
voice, occupied herself with her own thoughts. Her emotions toward John
Aggett had never much changed. Her love for Tim, being a feeling of
different quality, had left her temperate if sincere regard for John
unmoved. Possibly his own action in the past had rendered her more
kindly disposed to him than before. There certainly existed in her mind
a homespun, drab regard for him, and circumstances had not changed it.
Now as he strengthened her determination to give up her lover for her
lover’s good, and despite the bitterness of her spirit before the
sacrifice, she could find some room in her mind for the man before her.
To-day the presence of Sarah awoke the finest note in John. His first
dim hope was extinguished; he soared above it, resolutely banished any
personal interest in the problem now to be solved, and assumed that Sarah
had similarly obliterated him from all considerations of the future. But
it was not so.
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