England -- Social life and customs -- 19th century -- Fiction; Love stories; Oxford (England) -- Fiction; Young women -- Fiction
There would be some few thousand pounds left for himself when all was
settled. He was determined to go into Parliament, and his present
intention was to stand for a Merton fellowship, and read for the bar.
If other men could make three or four thousand a year within three
years or so of being called, why not he? His character had steeled
under the pressure of disaster. He realised with a clearer
intelligence, day by day, all that had gone from him—his father—his
inheritance—the careless ease and self-assurance that goes with the
chief places at the feast of life. But if he must now drop to the lower
rooms, it would not be “with shame” that he would do that, or anything
else. He felt within himself a driving and boundless energy, an iron
will to succeed. There was even a certain bitter satisfaction in
measuring himself against the world without the props and privileges he
had hitherto possessed. He was often sore and miserable to his heart’s
depths; haunted by black regrets and compunction he could not get rid
of. All the same it was his fixed resolve to waste no thoughts on mere
happiness. His business was to make a place for himself as an able man
among able men, to ask of ambition, intelligence, hard work, and the
sharpening of brain on brain, the satisfaction he had once hoped to get
out of marriage with Constance Bledlow, and the easy, though masterly,
use of great wealth.
He turned to look at the clock.
She had asked him for five. He had ordered his horse accordingly, the
only beast still left in the Flood stables, and his chief means of
escape during a dreary fortnight from his peevish co-executor, who was
of little or no service, and had allowed himself already to say
unpardonable things about his dead brother, even to that brother’s son.
It was too soon to start, but he pushed his papers aside impatiently.
The mere prospect of seeing Constance Bledlow provoked in him a dumb
and troubled excitement. Under its impulse he left the library, and
began to walk aimlessly through the dreary and deserted house, for the
mere sake of movement. The pictures were still on the walls, for the
sale of them had not yet been formally sanctioned by the court; but all
Lady Laura’s private and personal possessions had been removed to
London, and dust-sheets covered the furniture. Some of it indeed had
been already sold, and workmen were busy packing in the great hall,
amid a dusty litter of paper and straw. All the signs of normal life,
which make the character of a house, had gone; what remained was only
the débris of a once animated whole. Houses have their fate no less
than books; and in the ears of its last Falloden possessor, the whole
of the great many-dated fabric, from its fourteenth century foundations
beneath the central tower, to the pseudo-Gothic with which Wyatt had
disfigured the garden front, had often, since his father’s death,
seemed to speak with an almost human voice of lamentation and distress.
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