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But this afternoon Falloden took little notice of his surroundings. Why
had she written to him?
Well, after all, death is death, and the merest strangers had written
to him—letters that he was now wearily answering. But there had been
nothing perfunctory in her letter. As he read it he had seemed to hear
her very voice saying the soft, touching things in it—things that women
say so easily and men can’t hit upon; and to be looking into her
changing face, and the eyes that could be so fierce, and then again so
childishly sweet and sad—as he had seen them, at their last meeting on
the moor, while she was giving him news of Radowitz. Yet there was not
a word in the letter that might not have been read on the
house-tops—not a trace in it of her old alluring, challenging self.
Simplicity—deep feeling—sympathy—in halting words, and unfinished
sentences—and yet something conspicuously absent and to all appearance
so easily, unconsciously absent, that all the sweetness and pity
brought him more smart than soothing. Yes, she had done with him—for
all her wish to be kind to him. He saw it plainly; and he turned back
thirstily to those past hours in Lathom Woods, when he had felt
himself, if only for a moment, triumphant master of her thoughts, if
not her heart; rebelled against, scolded, flouted, yet still
tormentingly necessary and important. All that delicious friction,
those disputes that are the forerunner of passion were gone—forever.
She was sorry for him—and very kind. His touchy pride recoiled, reading
into her letter what she had never dreamt of putting into it, just
because of the absence of that something—that old tremor—those old
signs of his influence over her, which, of course, she would never let
him see again.
All the same he had replied at once, asking if he might come and say
good-bye before she left Scarfedale. And she had sent him a
telegram—“Delighted—to-morrow—five o’clock.”
And he was going—out of a kind of recklessness—kind of obstinate recoil
against the sorrowful or depressing circumstance of life. He had given
up all thoughts of trying to win her back, even if there were any
chance of it. His pride would not let him sue as a pauper; and of
course the Langmoors to whom she was going—he understood—from
Scarfedale, would take good care she did not throw herself away. Quite
right too. Very likely the Tamworths would capture her; and Bletchley
was quite a nice fellow.
When he did see her, what could they talk about? Radowitz?
He would like to send a message through her to Radowitz—to say
something—
What could he say? He had seen Radowitz for a few minutes after the
inquest—to thank him for his evidence—and for what he had done for Sir
Arthur. Both had hurried through it. Falloden had seemed to himself
stricken with aphasia. His mouth was dry, his tongue useless. And
Radowitz had been all nerves, a nickering colour—good God, how deathly
he looked!
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