England -- Fiction; Epistolary fiction; Mate selection -- Fiction; Mothers and daughters -- Fiction; Widows -- Fiction
I will not attempt to describe my astonishment in reading the note this
moment received from you. I am bewildered in my endeavours to form some
rational conjecture of what Mrs. Mainwaring can have told you to
occasion so extraordinary a change in your sentiments. Have I not
explained everything to you with respect to myself which could bear a
doubtful meaning, and which the ill-nature of the world had interpreted
to my discredit? What can you now have heard to stagger your esteem for
me? Have I ever had a concealment from you? Reginald, you agitate me
beyond expression, I cannot suppose that the old story of Mrs.
Mainwaring’s jealousy can be revived again, or at least be _listened_
to again. Come to me immediately, and explain what is at present
absolutely incomprehensible. Believe me, the single word of _Langford_
is not of such potent intelligence as to supersede the necessity of
more. If we _are_ to part, it will at least be handsome to take your
personal leave—but I have little heart to jest; in truth, I am serious
enough; for to be sunk, though but for an hour, in your esteem is a
humiliation to which I know not how to submit. I shall count every
minute till your arrival.
S. V.
XXXVI
_Mr. De Courcy to Lady Susan._
—— Hotel.
Why would you write to me? Why do you require particulars? But, since
it must be so, I am obliged to declare that all the accounts of your
misconduct during the life, and since the death of Mr. Vernon, which
had reached me, in common with the world in general, and gained my
entire belief before I saw you, but which you, by the exertion of your
perverted abilities, had made me resolved to disallow, have been
unanswerably proved to me; nay more, I am assured that a connection, of
which I had never before entertained a thought, has for some time
existed, and still continues to exist, between you and the man whose
family you robbed of its peace in return for the hospitality with which
you were received into it; that you have corresponded with him ever
since your leaving Langford; not with his wife, but with him, and that
he now visits you every day. Can you, dare you deny it? and all this at
the time when I was an encouraged, an accepted lover! From what have I
not escaped! I have only to be grateful. Far from me be all complaint,
every sigh of regret. My own folly had endangered me, my preservation I
owe to the kindness, the integrity of another; but the unfortunate Mrs.
Mainwaring, whose agonies while she related the past seemed to threaten
her reason, how is _she_ to be consoled! After such a discovery as
this, you will scarcely affect further wonder at my meaning in bidding
you adieu. My understanding is at length restored, and teaches no less
to abhor the artifices which had subdued me than to despise myself for
the weakness on which their strength was founded.
R. DE COURCY.
XXXVII
_Lady Susan to Mr. De Courcy._
Upper Seymour Street.
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