Lady Sybil's Choice: A Tale of the CrusadesHolt, Emily Sarah
History
Lady Sybil's Choice: A Tale of the Crusades
Holt, Emily Sarah
Crusades -- Fiction; Historical fiction
We reached Ascalon a week ago, making three short days’ journey of it,
so as not to over-fatigue the little ones. Those of us who have come
are Guy and Lady Sybil, myself, Amaury and Eschine, and the little
girls, Agnes and Héloïse. I brought Marguerite and Bertrade only to
wait on me. Lady Isabel prefers to stay at Hebron, which is only one
day’s journey from the Holy City. She and Messire Homfroy quarrelled
violently about it, for he wished to go to Acre, and wanted her to
accompany him; but in the end, as usual, she had her own way, and he
will go to Acre, and she to Hebron.
The night before we set forth, as I was passing Lady Judith’s door, her
low voice said—
"Helena, my child, wilt thou come in here? I want a word with thee."
So I went into her cell, which is perfectly plain, having no hangings of
any sort, either to the walls or the bed, only a bénitier[#] of red
pottery, and a bare wooden cross, affixed to the wall. She invited me to
sit on her bed, and then she said—
[#] Holy water vessel.
"Helena, unless thou seest some very strong reason, do not speak to the
Count touching the Count of Tripoli until we meet again."
"Well, I thought I should not," said I. "But, holy Mother, will you
tell me why?"
"We may be mistaken," she answered. "And, if not, I am very doubtful
whether it would not do more harm than good. After all, dear maiden,
the shortest cut is round by Heaven. Whenever I feel doubtful how far
it is wise to speak, I like to lay the matter before the Lord, and ask
Him to speak for me, if He sees good. He will make no mistake, as I
might: and He can tell secrets without doing harm, as probably I should.
It is the safest way, Helena, and the surest."
"I should be afraid!" said I. "But of course, holy Mother, for you"——
"Yes," she said, answering my half-expressed thought. "It is a hard
matter to ask a favour of a stranger, especially if he be a king. But
where he is thy father——Dost thou understand me, maiden?"
Ay, only too well. Well enough to make me feel sick at heart, as if the
gulf between grew wider than ever. Should I never find the bridge
across?
We lead such a quiet, peaceful life here! Some time ago, I should have
called it dull; but I am tired of pageants, and skirmishes, and
quarrels, and so it is rather a relief—for a little while. Lady Sybil, I
can see, enjoys it: she likes quiet. Amaury fumes and frets. I believe
Eschine likes it, but won’t say so, because she knows Amaury does not.
I never saw the equal of Eschine for calm contentedness. "All
right"—"never mind it"—"it does not signify"—are the style of her stock
phrases when any thing goes wrong. And "Won’t it be all the same a
hundred years hence?" That is a favourite reflection with her.
"Oh dear, Eschine!" I could not help saying one day, "I do hate that pet
phrase of thine. A hundred years hence! That will be the year of our
Lord 1285. Why, thou and I will be nowhere then."
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