Lady Sybil's Choice: A Tale of the Crusades — John Shaqi
Lady Sybil's Choice: A Tale of the CrusadesHolt, Emily Sarah
History
Lady Sybil's Choice: A Tale of the Crusades
Holt, Emily Sarah
Crusades -- Fiction; Historical fiction
"Only the good God knows that," she said, still looking up intently
through the roof of the church,—or where the roof should have been—into
the sky. "But I would it might. If I could find it in my heart to envy
any mortal creature, it would be them who shall look up, maybe with eyes
dimmed by tears, and see Him coming!"
"I cannot comprehend thee, Margot," said I. "I think it would be just
dreadful. I can hardly imagine a greater shock."
"Suppose, at this moment, my Damoiselle were to look behind her, and see
Monseigneur Count Guy standing there, smiling on her,—would she think it
a dreadful shock?"
"Margot! How can the two be compared?"
"Only love can compare them," answered the old woman softly.
"Marguerite! Dost thou—canst thou—love our Lord as much as I love Guy?
It is not possible!"
"A thousand times more, my Damoiselle. Your Nobility, I know, loves
Monseigneur very dearly; yet you have other interests apart from him. I
have no interest apart from my Lord. All my griefs, all my joys, I take
to Him; and until He has laid His hand on them and blessed them, I can
neither endure the one nor enjoy the other."
I wonder if Lady Judith feels like that! I should like to ask her, if I
could take the liberty.
Marguerite was looking up again into the sky.
"Only think what it will be!" she said. "To look up from the cradle of
your dying child, with the anguish of helplessness pressing tight upon
your heart—and see Him! To look up from your own sick bed, faint and
weary beyond measure—and see Him! From the bitter sense of sin and
failure—from cruel words and unkind looks—from loneliness and
desolation—from hunger and cold and homelessness—to look up, and see
Him! There will be some suffering all these things when He comes. Oh,
why are His chariot-wheels so long in coming? Does not He long for it
even more than we?"
I was silent. She looked—this old villein woman—almost like one
inspired.
"He knows!" she added softly. "He knows. He can wait. Then we can.
Surely I come quickly. Amen. Come, Lord Jesus!"’
Amaury called me, and I left her there.
He wanted to creep through the columns, and wished me to try first, as I
am slimmer than he. I managed it pretty well,—so now all my sins are
remitted, and I do feel so good and nice! Lady Isabel could hardly do
it; and Amaury, who has been growing fatter of late, could not get
through at all. He was much disappointed, and very cross in
consequence. Damoiselle Melisende would not try. She said, laughing,
that she was quite sure she could not push through, and she must get her
sins forgiven some other way. But she mischievously ran and fetched old
Marguerite, and putting on a grave face, proposed to her to try the
feat. Now I am quite certain Marguerite could never have done it; for
though she is not stout, she is a large-built woman. But she looked at
the place for a moment, and then said to Melisende—
"If the Damoiselle pleases, what will follow?"
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