Lady Sybil's Choice: A Tale of the CrusadesHolt, Emily Sarah
History
Lady Sybil's Choice: A Tale of the Crusades
Holt, Emily Sarah
Crusades -- Fiction; Historical fiction
"Damoiselle," she said, "my husband followed his Seigneur to the war,
and left me ill at home in my cot. He had no power to choose, as my
Damoiselle must know. The night fell, and the Seigneur came home with
banners flying, and along the village street there were bonfires and
rejoicings for a great victory. But my husband did not come. I rose
from my sick-bed, and wrapped myself in a sheepskin, and went out to the
fatal field. Like a candle in the sunlight, the pain of the heart put
out the pain of the body. What I saw that night my Damoiselle will not
ask. It were not meet to rehearse in the ears of a young noble lady. I
do not know how I bore it, only that I did bear—going from one to
another in the moonlight, and turning my lantern on the dead still
faces, ever looking for that face which I feared to find. And at last I
found him, my Piers, the one love of my young life,—where the fight had
been the most terrible, and the dead lay thickest. I knew that he had
acquitted himself right well, for his face was to the foe, and the
broken shaft of his Seigneur’s pennon was still grasped tightly in his
hand. Damoiselle, there was no funeral pageant, no table tomb, no
herald’s cry for him. Strangers’ hands buried him where he lay, as they
might have buried the Seigneur’s horse, if need were. And there were no
white weeds and seclusion for me, his young widow, who knelt by my
baby’s cradle, too miserable for tears. But may be, in those halls
where all souls are alike before the King of Kings, the Voice from the
Throne said to him, ’Well done!’ And the Voice did verily say to me,
’Fear not! Come unto Me, and I will give thee rest.’—Ah, my Damoiselle
knows now what her old nurse thinks of war."
Oh, why must there be such things?
"How else could a knight win his spurs?" indignantly demands Amaury.
But surely, the winning of Amaury’s spurs is not the only thing of any
consequence in the world. Does the good God Himself take no account of
widows’ tears and orphans’ wails, if only the knights win their spurs?
Could not some other way be contrived for the spurs, which would leave
people alive when it was finished?
"Now, Elaine, don’t be such a simpleton!" says Amaury.
So at last, as nobody else (except Marguerite, who is nobody) seems to
understand me, I ask Lady Judith what she thinks.
"My child," she says, "’He maketh wars to cease unto the ends of the
earth; He breaketh the bow, and snappeth the spear in sunder, and
burneth the chariot in the fire.’ ’The Father of the age to come, the
Prince of Peace!’ It is one of His fairest titles. But not till He
comes, Helena. Till then, earth will be red with the blood of her sons,
and moistened with the tears of her daughters. Let us pray for His
coming."
"But holy Mother, that is ages off!" said I.
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