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that to cheer her; but as it was she would have nothing, not even the
gloomy importance of an engagement to break off, a farewell that would
have a whole tragedy in it: not even that: only a mere drifting asunder,
a vacancy where there had been so much hope: a life blighted before it
had come to bloom.
This thought occupied her mind sadly as she made that unnecessary round.
He had gone off like a racehorse, scarcely touching the ground in the
heat of his vexation and offence, but she went along very slowly, with
the depression of the one who is in fault; whose interference and
perhaps unreasonable censure had made the breach. Who, after all, was
she that she should tell him of his duty, or that something else than
the course he had adopted was a better way? she, only a girl with no
education in particular, dictating not only to a man trained to
discriminate what was the best, but a priest with the highest of vows
upon him, and a special consecration to God’s service? Her presumption
overwhelmed her when she thought of it in this light. But perhaps to be
a member of a clerical family, used to see gentlemen of that profession
too closely, and amid all the little trials of life, takes away to a
certain extent the visionary reverence which it would be perhaps better
to keep like an aureole about them. Florence could not surrender her
natural judgment to this extent, nor convince herself that she had done
wrong. She had taken perhaps an inopportune moment, but she had not said
anything that was not true. She had managed badly for herself, and she
would have to bear the result: but it was not wrong what she had said,
nor was it wrong to say it; for perhaps, who could tell, he had never
thought of that side of the question before? Very likely he had never
thought of it. Some people are so happy that they never have in all
their lives to encounter misery in their family, and how can they know,
unless somebody who does know it, somebody who has been forced to
understand it, tells them? And perhaps--she thought with a forlorn
consolation--what she had said would bear fruit, though he might never
have anything to do with her again. He was too much offended, wounded,
hurt, to think of her any more; that was a thing to be received as
certain once for all; but perhaps what she had said would come back to
him, and he might feel that it was true.
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