England -- Social life and customs -- Fiction; Villages -- Fiction
Mab went home from her visit to Mrs. Brown a very different girl from
that little person who had run off from the group of her friends to ask
the co-operation of the schoolmistress--which had seemed to her a very
amusing mission. She had wondered much how it would be taken--with
satire or with pleasure. Mrs. Brown’s tongue was one which could sting,
Mab knew; but a tongue is all the more amusing for that, when its sting
is not for one’s self. Mab rather liked to hear her sending her arrows
from right to left. She had thought that probably it was misfortune that
caused this, and the sense which people who have seen better days are
apt to entertain that it is somehow a wrong to themselves that other
people should be prosperous. We are all, unfortunately, too apt to feel
so. Blatant prosperity, smiling and smooth, how hard it is for the rest
of us not to hate its superior well-being, even if we do not think that
it is something taken from ourselves. But that was a very different
thing from the dreadful confidences which Mab had received, and which
made of her, even herself, who had certainly nothing to do with Mrs.
Brown’s sin, a heavy-laden and burdened spirit. Little Mab, who had run
down to the schoolhouse as light as a feather--though she was not, as
the reader is aware, one of your thread-paper girls--came back from it
as if she had carried that pack upon her back which Christian had in the
_Pilgrim’s Progress_. The pack belonged to Christian himself, and he had
a right to bear it; but, I repeat, Mab had nothing to do with Mrs.
Brown’s sins. And I am not at all sure what Mab conceived these sins to
be; she knew nothing about them: they were something vaguely terrible,
vaguely yet frightfully guilty to her childish sense of purity and
rectitude. And yet Mrs. Brown was the schoolmistress, the woman who had
all the Watcham girls in her hands; and Mab alone, of all the parish,
knew that she was not fit to be trusted with that charge. She walked
home with the tread and the air of a woman of fifty, her soft brow lined
with prodigious scores of thought, her spiritual back bent under this
burden. Mab knew, while all the parish lay in darkness. And Mab, the
Rector’s niece, and a district visitor, and Lady Bountiful from her
cradle, had a duty to the parish which a person less bound with ties of
duty might not have thought of. There was her duty to the parish, and,
on the other hand, there was her duty to her penitent; for, though she
had not asked to have that high office, still Mab felt that she had been
adopted as the confessor of the sinner. Sinner was a better name for her
than penitent, for she was not penitent; but yet she had trusted Mab.
And what was the person so trusted to do?--betray it to the parish, or
to any one in the parish? Oh, no, no! And yet was not that to betray the
parish and its trust and confidence in herself? If you can imagine any
subject more likely to score with wrinkles a brow of seventeen, such a
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