Laicus; Or, the Experiences of a Layman in a Country Parish.Abbott, Lyman
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Laicus; Or, the Experiences of a Layman in a Country Parish.
Abbott, Lyman
Christian fiction; New York (State) -- Fiction; Parishes -- Fiction
The prolonged silence grew painful. Then I heard a rustle as of one
rising to his feet. Then a voice; I startled, half turned round,
restrained myself, thank God, and only cast on Jennie, at my side, a
look of wonder and of thanksgiving. The voice was that of Mr. Gear.
"Fellow-townsmen," said he,--he spoke hesitatingly at first as one
unused to the place and the assemblage,--"I have come here to make a
request. You are surprised to see me here. You will be more
surprised to hear my request. I want to ask you to pray for me."
He had recovered from his hesitancy now. But he spoke with an
unnatural rapidity as though he were afraid of breaking down
altogether if he stopped a moment to reflect upon himself and his
position.
"You know me only as an infidel. I am an infidel. At least I was.
Yes! I suppose I still am. My mother died when I was but a babe. My
father brought me up. He was orthodox of the orthodox. But oh! he
was a hard man. And he had a hard creed. I used to think the creed
made the man. Lately I have thought perhaps the man made the creed.
At all events both were hard. And I repudiated both. At fourteen I
abhorred my father's creed. At eighteen I had left my father's roof.
I have never returned except on occasional visits."
He had gained more self-possession now, and spoke more slowly and
distinctly. The room was as still as that room of death in which the
evening before I had prayed with him, kneeling by the corpse of his
little boy.
"What I have been at Wheathedge you know. I cannot come here
to-night on a false pretence. I cannot call myself a desperate
sinner. I have wronged no man. I have lived honestly and uprightly
before you all. I owe no man anything. I have depended on my daily
labor for my daily bread. Out of it I have provided as I had
opportunity for the poor around me. No one ever went hungry from my
door away. My creed has been a short and simple one, 'Do unto others
as you would have others do unto you.' I have tried to live
according to my creed.
"But I begin to think that my creed is not all the truth. Mr. Laicus
first led me to think so. No! my boy first led me to think so. I was
satisfied with my creed for myself. But I was not satisfied with it
for my boy.
"Then I met Mr. Laicus. We commenced to study the Bible together. If
he had attempted to prove my opinions wrong I would have defended
them. But he did not. We studied the undoubted truth. The doubtful
points he left alone. I learned there was more in the Bible, more in
human life and the human heart than I had thought. I grew little by
little sure that I had not all the truth. But I was unwilling to
confess it. I was-yes, I was too proud.
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