Laicus; Or, the Experiences of a Layman in a Country Parish.Abbott, Lyman
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Laicus; Or, the Experiences of a Layman in a Country Parish.
Abbott, Lyman
Christian fiction; New York (State) -- Fiction; Parishes -- Fiction
"Yesterday"--his voice trembled and he spoke with difficulty for a
moment, but quickly recovered himself--"yesterday we lost the light
and life out of our house. No! I am wrong. My light was
extinguished, and my life was quenched in death. But my wife's was
not. The dear boy was as dear to her as he was to me. But she lives
and hopes; I am in darkness and almost in despair. My father's hard
creed drove me into infidelity. My wife's, my friend's tenderer and
happier faith calls me back again. But I do not know the way.
"Last night, kneeling by the side of my dear boy, I vowed that I
would cast away my pride and seek that light in which my wife and my
friends are walking. An hour ago the thought occurred to me-where
seek it better than where they are gathered who are walking in this
light? It seemed to me I could not come. But I had made the vow. I
would not go back from it. I have cast away my pride. Oh! friends,
help me to find that light in which you walk.
"Do not misunderstand me. I will not have your prayers on false
pretences. I am, if not still an infidel, at least an unbeliever. I
have no creed. I only believe that there is light somewhere, for
others live in it. And I long to come into that light myself. Help
me to find the way. And yet-I hardly know why I came here to-night.
It was not for counsel. I do not want words now. The kindliest only
pain me. Discussion and debate would arouse all the old devil of
contradiction in me. Leave me alone. No! Do not leave me alone. Give
me your prayers. Give me your Christian sympathies. But for the
rest, for a little while, I want to be alone."
He sat down. There was a moment of perfect stillness. Then the
pastor arose.
"Christ's sympathies are broader and His love is larger than we
think," said he. "We hedge him round with our poor creeds, and shut
Him up in our little churches, and think He works only in our
appointed ways. He breaks over the barriers we put about him, and
carries on His work of love in hearts that we think are beyond all
reach of Him or us. We cannot tell our brother how to find the
light. The light will find him. 'Jesus Christ is the light which
lighteth every man that cometh into the world.' And when the heart
casts its pride away the light enters. For thus saith the High and
Lofty One that inhabiteth eternity, whose name is Holy; I dwell in
the high and holy place; with him also that is of a contrite and
humble spirit, to revive the heart of the contrite ones. Into His
hands let us commit our brother's spirit."
And he poured forth his soul in a prayer which carried heavenward
many an unbreathed cry for help, and received in the beating of many
hearts a warmer, truer response than any spoken words could have
given to it.
After service I walked along with Maurice Mapleson.
"I was never more astonished in my life," said I, "than when I heard
Mr. Gear's voice in the prayer-meeting to-night."
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