“Do you never whistle, Lord De Vaux?” she asked curiously one day. “My
brother Berry is a great whistler, and I miss the music. I know it is
very homely music, but none seems to me so blythe or so straight from
the heart. I wish girls might whistle if they could. I will confess to
you I have tried and failed. Berry said it was the feeblest attempt at
the magnificent—like a mouse squeaking.”
He did not answer her that he had no heart-hilarity from which to
whistle, and that he had sometimes been moved to envy a ploughboy who
went whistling joyously past him, only pausing to take off his cap to
the young lord on his walk or ride.
The next time De Vaux was in his room, with the door ajar, and was
aware that Lady Margaret was going along the corridor, he whistled
with all his might, though it took away his breath, so unwonted was
the performance; and involuntarily he fell into a solemn and stately
measure, like the “Dead March in Saul.” Still, he responded to her
suggestion better than Carlo had done, and he made her laugh—though he
was happily unconscious of it—at his doleful strain. She called him to
herself “the melancholy Jaques,” and said, though he was a product of
the age, a specimen of the kind existed in the time of Queen Elizabeth.
But I don’t know that Lady Margaret thought the worse of him, or
liked him the less, because of her private wit at his expense;
though he—being, like other young men, stupid where young girls are
concerned—might have been at that date hurt and offended, and even
imagined that she despised him because she made game of him.
One morning, as an excuse for his elegant idleness—of which he began to
feel slightly ashamed, when he was forced to see how busy this delicate
little girl was, and generally on the behalf of others—he repeated to
her the speech he had addressed to his mother, of his wanting a modern
crusade to induce him to put on his armor.
“But there is a crusade going on all around us, for every one of us,
always,” she said, opening her eyes wide. “We have never been without
one since”—she stopped, but he knew what she meant.
“I quite envy those fellows who have their own way to make in the
world,” he observed on another occasion, still with an underlying
motive of self-defence, and speaking in allusion to her younger
brothers’ work in their military and naval schools.
“Oh! but Berry does most of all,” she explained promptly; “and he is
an eldest son—like you, I had almost said, but you are an only son and
child. I pity you, if you will forgive me for pitying you.”
“Not forgive, but thank you, and I pity myself,” he answered quickly,
for it had at that moment struck him that, if he had possessed an
admiring sister to quote him as she quoted “Berry,” or to look up to
and depend upon him as she described her schoolboy brothers looking up
to and depending on their elder brother, he might have had more faith
in himself, and more inducement for exertion.
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