Arrived at the pool-side, within a few yards of him, the human couple,
of whom he is so much too joyful to be the little spokesman, stand quite
still, in fear of scaring him; but in his happy little heart there is no
room for fear, and from the look of the poor souls he knows that they
are not enemies.
“I told you that he would save us the trouble of talking,” says Lavinia
under her breath.
He has saved the lesser singers of his own genus the same trouble,
apparently; for whether quelled or entranced, or learning those
imitations which they will afterwards practise with clever inferiority,
they are dumbed.
Lavinia listens at first with a sense of relief. The divine organ that
lies in that little parcel of feathers is uttering all the longings, all
the merging of two into one, all the fruition-nearing desires to which
she may never, never give voice. To the deceit of that seeming relief
succeeds an intolerable revolt. Why should she of all creation alone be
silent? Why should not she for once speak out? Why, since this little
island of time upon which they stand is their very own, since they have
no future, since they have been ironically given this one half-hour to
show them what life might have been,--why should not they be wise, and,
pushing aside those dim ghosts which they themselves have quixotically
interposed between the aching reality of their own bruised hearts, slake
their terrible thirst for each other in one first and last draught?
The temptation to throw herself upon his breast is so strong, that to
her dazed senses she almost seems to herself to have already yielded to
it, though in effect she has only stood in pale maidenliness at his
side; but the illusion is so vivid, and the reactionary shock of horror
at herself so potent, that she walks with unsteady haste away from her
companion towards the singer, whom her movement puts to flight.
“You have frightened him away!” says the young man, standing still on
the path.
“Yes; I am glad.”
“_Glad!_ That is not a word that one seems to have much use for just
now!”
His tone tells her that the temptation is strong upon him too, and his
action, in adding two or three more yards to those she has already set
between them, that in deadly struggle he is grappling with it. If she
were his true love, would not she come to his aid? With a prodigious
effort she clears the red mist from before her eyes, and steadies the
trembling in her traitorous hands. Then, rejoining him, and beginning to
resume the walk that their charmed ears had first interrupted, she says,
in a tone to whose cheerfulness she tries with all the force of her
will-power not to give a hysterical ring--
“After all, there is a good deal to be glad of, if one comes to think of
it--your recovery, your Victoria Cross----”
“Yes,” indistinctly; but with an effort, whose suffering manliness she
recognizes, to follow her lead--“yes; I am a sweep to complain!”
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