Her cup of misery runs over. “No doubt,” she answers with a shuddering
distinctness. “If you ask Féodorovna, she will write you a long account
of my wedding! She is a great letter-writer!”
As if the words possessed some paralyzing spell over their feet, both of
them stop dead short; and, turning round, stare full in each other’s
faces, conversation shrivelling up its thin fabric in that fiery moment;
and then--the inevitable happens. The gasping lips draw nearer, nearer,
nearer; the idly hanging arms stretch themselves out, enfold, embrace,
crush; and, with no apparent initiation on either side, Fate hurls them
upon one another’s forbidden breasts. Their kisses are frantic with the
haste of six wasted weeks, and have their edge given by the knowledge
that, for these sad two, there is only one little dreg at the bottom of
the wine-cup of life and love, and that if they do not make haste to
drain it, it will be poured out on the desert ground that is soaked with
the lost vintages meant to appease the thirst of parched humanity.
They have thrust away the irksome apparition that had officiously
flitted between them. For such a ghost’s thin body there is no room
between his heart and hers. Out of both those hearts all their former
long-established, deep-rooted inhabitants are turned, driven by the
flail of the one supreme scourge. In those hearts Honour had held her
high court, Duty had wielded her sceptre, unselfish Family Affection
been warmly nested. Now, of none of them is there a trace left in either
consciousness. For neither of them does anything exist but the
omnipotent primal instinct--the instinct that drove the first man and
woman into each other’s throbbing arms.
It is not for long--not for more than a few moments--only for one
kiss-length, that that mad, dumb, clinging oblivion endures. Then the
old ejected law-givers begin to gather up their sceptres and return;
boldly ejecting, in their turn, the furious rebel that had ousted them;
and the two that God has not joined together stagger apart. As in the
impulse of embrace neither was earlier or later than the other, so is
the shock of disunion common and simultaneous. They find themselves
standing apart, uncertainly staring at each other in the imperfect
consciousness of an enormous joint crime. It was only a kiss--an utter,
scorching, lover’s kiss, it is true--yet still only a kiss that has so
seared their re-awakening consciences; but had their disloyalty gone to
the extremest pitch of unfaithfulness, it could hardly have branded them
with a deeper sense of guilt. Her white lips frame three scarcely
audible words, which he yet hears--“This--day--week!”--and he whispers,
in horrified ejaculation, “Rupert! _Bill!_”
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