Seven days are gone since Lavinia was called upon to exult over the
nursery hangings, and there is no exultation, even feigned, in the tone
with which she quotes to herself the words of Jacob, running over in her
head what “these things” are. It is “against her” that the search for
the missing baptismal entry, now complicated by doubt as to the
whereabouts of the register in which it was made, has motived another
absence on the part of her bridegroom and uncle. It is against her that
this fact has come to Mrs. Prince’s ears, and has brought a hailstorm of
invitations, entreaties, and reproaches about Miss Carew’s head. It is
against her that Féodorovna, having with a headstrong insanity, even
stronger than her vanity, insisted on visiting Binning, has succeeded in
improving upon her original malady by an attack of pneumonia, and
brought herself to death’s door.
As she unquietly paces the garden at Campion Place, waiting for the
Princes’ victoria to convey her to the Chestnuts, Lavinia, dolefully
probing her conscience, asks it which of the causes that have added
their weight to each other till their momentum has grown irresistible,
can be, in any common fairness, laid at her door; and she can detect no
unjust bias in her own favour in the “not one” that answers her inward
inquisition.
On the elms’ little leaves in the giant espaliered hedge that parts her
from the churchyard is the glisten of that sunshine that has just been
luring them into life; on the dazzling emerald grass “nice-eyed”
wagtails are walking with balanced tails at the foot of the old grey
wall which, on the left side of the demesne, drops down a matter of ten
feet to the croquet lawn below. She, looking absently over, can see the
large-flowered periwinkle staring up at her, and the heaven-shaming blue
of the forget-me-not fringe. The sight of the latter blossoms causes her
a twinge of discomfort. She had worn a little bunch of them in her white
coat, and at his leave-taking, a quarter of an hour ago, Rupert had
deliberately unpinned and annexed them. Could he have intended any
rebuke or admonishment by an action unlike him in its something of cool
ownership? Yet there was certainly nothing of overweening confidence or
masterdom in the words with which he had answered her at the moment,
sincerely meant and felt--
“This is really too bad.”
“Has absence made the heart grow fonder?” he asks, with a light
lip-raillery, which the restrained yet legible wistfulness of his eyes
contradicts. “When I see a wave of hatred coming on, I shall know what
remedy to apply.”
She has taught him to be sparing of endearments. Yet even he must expect
some trifling kindness at parting. It weighs upon her conscience after
he is gone that she had deftly chosen a moment when the butler was
passing through the hall to bid him her final good-bye.
“All these things are against me!”
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