He pauses, not for the moment quite equal to bear placing, even in
imagination, the _jeune ménage_. Yet he will not spare himself the pain
of knowing what corner of the fragrant homely room, that bears the
imprint of her and her tastes and occupations, will shelter the warm
domestic nearness to each other of husband and wife.
“Tell me where you all sit, that, when I am gone, I may picture you.”
“That is Uncle George’s chair,” she says, pointing to the one that the
young man had rightly assigned to the house’s master; and then stops.
“And Rupert’s?”
“Rupert has no particular chair.” After a moment, “Rupert always chooses
whatever seat he thinks no one else wants; that is Rupert’s theory of
life--and his practice.”
The tribute seems wrung out of her; yet she makes it, and handsomely
too.
He gives a little nod of acquiescence, inwardly shocked at his own want
of generosity in being able to do no more, yet--inwardly also--writhing
at her praise.
“And you have lived here always?”
“Yes, always; that is, ever since Uncle George picked me out of the
gutter.” She gives a forced laugh, and goes on, “You know that when I
was a destitute baby he saved me from the workhouse?”
“Yes, you told me.”
“Your tone says that I have repeated it _ad nauseam_. Well, I have to do
it, lest--though you would hardly think such a thing possible--I may
forget it. I am very near doing it sometimes.”
“I do not believe it.”
There is a grit and manliness in his voice that almost contradicts the
passion in his eyes--eyes in which, for all their passion, there is room
too for a wondering consternation at the metamorphosis wrought in his
sweet, calm nurse and comrade.
“Shall we go out of doors?” he asks, after a moment or two of burdensome
silence. “We have had so few hours out of doors together.”
She reads his thought. They will be safer--safer from themselves and
from each other--out of doors. It had been her own, and she is almost
sure that she had meant to act in accordance with it; yet that it should
come from him causes her a dull surprise, painful through all its
dulness.
“Where would you like to go?” she asks, when they stand together on the
garden sward facing the familiar view, the distance clearly azure-blue
to-day, but over which, as she has so often triumphantly explained to
visitors, a grey mist is apt to lie while her upland is in radiant
sunshine. To-day the cases are reversed. Sunshine bathes the distance;
it is on her heart that the fog lies thick. “Where would you like to
go?” she repeats. “To the Rectory, to bid good-bye to the children?”
It is out-Heroding Herod to suggest that their last hour shall be spent
in company, and her heart stands still until his answer comes. If it is
an assent, all danger will be over, and of that she ought to be glad.
But it is not.
“Show me some pleasant walk where you often go.”
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