Country life -- Fiction; Italy -- Fiction; Peasants -- Fiction; Young women -- Fiction
But she had shown a comprehension of his position, of his motives, of
his difficulties, which was welcome in the isolation wherein he lived,
and made him grateful to her, as he would have been for the sympathy of
some other man. He discerned the intelligence which shone through the
fog of her ignorance, and he appraised at its due value the courage
which kept her in perpetual opposition to those with whom she lived.
Her warnings did not influence his conduct, but he knew that they were
founded on a just estimate of those around him. They weighed, however,
but little upon him, because his philosophy was fatalistic, and he
had that apathetic indifference to danger which comes from extreme
unhappiness in life. When you have lost all except actual existence, it
seems to matter little if sheer existence be taken as well.
He had been now eighteen months in these woods, seeing no faces but
those of peasants hostile to him, and exchanging no single word with
anyone of cultured intelligence. Muriella was ignorant as any one
of the sheep, who only knew their winter and summer tracks; but she
understood with her heart, if not with her mind, and he found relief
in telling her a little of those “old forgotten far-off things,” which
seemed to him so many æons of time away, though they belonged in truth
only to his own life of a year or two earlier. It did him good to call
up that past, these scenes, all those who had been with him in his
daily life; it relieved him of that dazed sense of unreality which came
upon him as on men in the solitude of a condemned cell.
Once he spoke of the woman he loved: not by name, but as Surrey might
have spoken of Geraldine, with bated breath and unuttered prayer; and
having thus spoken once, he did so again, and yet again, tracing her
portrait in words, pressing the dagger of regret into his heart as
lovers love to do in every age. And Muriella listened, growing pale,
hanging on his words, till in her rude fancy an image shaped itself
from his words clothed in starlight, crowned with the pale hellebore,
fugitive, spiritual, unreachable. Imagination was dormant in her; it
caught light at the flame of his higher intelligence. She could not
see clearly by it, but she saw a ray before her feet--a soft faint
green light like that of the glowworm in the woodland paths, the ray of
awaking comprehension, with its companion pain.
She did not know why she thought of this unknown lady thus. Perhaps it
was because, when he first spoke of her, the hellebore was in blossom
all over the awakening woods.
It did not occur to him that he did a cruel thing in interesting thus
in his fate a poor untutored maiden; he scarcely thought of her at
all; he spoke to her because he read loyalty and sympathy in her gaze
as in the eyes of a dog; and because he was weary of the long, dumb,
friendless front in which his mind and memories were imprisoned.
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