English literature -- 20th century; English poetry -- 20th century
JOHN RIDLEY, the subject of this poem, was killed in February 1918.
“If I should perish,” he wrote to me only five weeks before his death,
“if I should perish—and one isn’t exactly a ’good life’ at the
moment—I wish you’d write something about me. It isn’t vanity (for I
know you’ll do me, if anything, rather less than justice!), not vanity,
I repeat; but that queer irrational desire one has for immortality of
any kind, however short and precarious—for frankly, my dear, I doubt
whether your verses will be so very much more perennial than brass.
Still, they’ll be something. One can’t, of course, believe in any
_au-delà_ for one’s personal self; one would have first to believe in
some kind of a friendly god. And as for being a spiritualist spook, one
of those wretched beings who seem to spend their eternity in trying to
communicate with the earth by a single telephone, where the number is
always engaged, and the line chronically out of order—well, all I can
say is, Heaven preserve me from such a future life. No, my only hope is
you—and a damned poor guarantee for eternity. Don’t make of me a khaki
image, I beg. I’d rather you simply said of me, as Erasmus did of his
brother, ‘Strenuus compotor, nec scortator ignavus.’ I sincerely hope,
of course, that you won’t have to write the thing at all—hope not, but
have very little doubt you will. Good-bye.”
The following poem is a tentative and provisional attempt to comply with
his request. Ridley was an adolescent, and suffered from that
instability of mind “produced by the mental conflict forced upon man by
his sensitiveness to herd suggestion on the one hand and to experience
on the other” (I quote from Mr. Trotter’s memorable work on Herd
Instinct), that characteristic instability which makes adolescence so
feebly sceptical, so inefficient, so profoundly unhappy. I have fished
up a single day from Ridley’s forgotten existence. It has a bedraggled
air in the sunlight, this poor wisp of Lethean weed. Fortunately,
however, it will soon be allowed to drop back into the water, where we
shall all, in due course, join it. “The greater part must be content to
be as though they had not been.”
I
BETWEEN the drawing of the blind
And being aware of yet another day
There came to him behind
Close, pregnant eyelids, like a flame of blue,
Intense, untroubled by the wind,
A Mediterranean bay,
Bearing a brazen beak and foamless oars
To where, marmoreally smooth and bright,
The steps soar up in one pure flight
From the sea’s edge to the palace doors,
That have shut, have shut their valves of bronze—
And the windows too are lifeless eyes.
The galley grated on the stone;
He stepped out—and was alone:
No white-sailed hopes, no clouds, nor swans
To shatter the ocean’s calm, to break the sky’s.
Public-domain text, read in full here on John Shaqi.
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