Death -- Fiction; Friendship -- Fiction; Psychological fiction; Women novelists -- Fiction
Anita’s pale eye met and held her glance as if she resented that
sympathy. Then, as if indeed she were suddenly grown weak, she
acquiesced.
“I suppose so. Yes, it’s the helplessness. ‘If this didn’t happen’—‘If
that weren’t so’—Little things, little things—and they govern one. A
broken doll—a cowslip ball—stronger than all my strength. And she
needn’t have met Carey. It was just a chance. If I’d known—that day! I
used to ask her questions, just to make her talk. I remember asking her
about her old home—more to set her off than anything. I said I’d like to
see it some day. It was true. I was interested. But it was only to make
her talk. But she—oh, you know how she foamed up about a thing. ‘My old
home! Would you, Anita? Would you like to come? Wouldn’t it bore you,
Anita? It’s all spoiled, you know. But I go down now and then. Nobody
remembers me. It’s like being a ghost. Oh, I _feel_ for ghosts. Would
you really like to come? Shall we go soon? Shall we go today?’ And then,
of course, down we go. And then we meet Carey. And then the play
begins.”
Miss Howe shook her head.
“Ends.”
Anita accepted it.
“Ends. Then the play ends.” And then, frowning—“If I’d known that day—if
I’d known! I was warned, too. That’s strange. I’ve never thought of it
from that day to this. If I were an old wife now——” She shivered.
“What happened?” said the Baxter girl curiously.
“Oh, well, off we went! We had a carriage to ourselves. I was glad. I
thought she might talk.”
“And you always tried to make her talk,” said Miss Howe softly.
Anita went on without answering her.
“She grew quite excited as we travelled down, talking about her ‘youth.’
She always spoke as if she were a hundred.”
“She put something into that youth of hers, I shouldn’t wonder,” said
Miss Howe.
“She did. The things she told me that day. I knew she had been in
America, but I never dreamed——She landed there, if you please, without a
penny in her pocket, without a friend in the world.”
“I never understood why she went to America,” said Miss Howe. “I asked
her once.”
“What did she say?” said Anita curiously.
“To make her fortune. But I never got any details out of her.”
“Didn’t you know?” said Anita. “Her people emigrated. The father failed.
It happened when Madala was eighteen, and she and her mother persuaded
him, expecting him, literally, to make their fortunes. The mother seems
to have been an erratic person. Irish, I believe. Beautiful.
Extravagant. I have always imagined that it was her extravagance—but
Madala and the husband seem to have adored her. I remember Madala saying
once that her father had been born unlucky, ‘except when he married
Mother!’ I suspect, myself, that that was the beginning of his ill-luck.
Anyhow, when the crash came, they gathered together what they had and
started off on some romantic notion of the mother’s to make their
fortune farming. America. Steerage. The _Sylvania_.”
“_Sylvania?_ That’s familiar. What was it? A collision, wasn’t it?”
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