Death -- Fiction; Friendship -- Fiction; Psychological fiction; Women novelists -- Fiction
But as I asked I knew that he hadn’t. He had the look. Oh, he wore good
clothes and I knew he wasn’t poor. But it was written all over him that
he looked after himself and did it expensively and badly. He had, too,
that other look that goes with it—of a man who has never found anyone
more interesting to him than himself. And the queer part was that it
didn’t seem selfish in him—and I’m sure it wasn’t. It was just like the
way a child takes you for granted, and tells you about its own big
affairs, and never guesses that you have your own little affairs too. I
suppose it was a fault in him; but it made me like him. And he talked to
me simply and almost as if he needed helping out; as if he’d been just
anybody. I never had to help out anyone before: it had always been the
other way round. I’d thought, too, that celebrated people were always
superior and brilliant and overwhelming, like Anita and Mr. Flood. But
he wasn’t. He was as simple as A, B, C. I liked him. I did like him. I
felt happier, more at peace, standing there with him than I had felt
since I had been in Anita’s house. I think he would have gone on talking
to me too, if it hadn’t been for the Baxter girl. She spoilt it. She
tilted back her chair, yawning, and so caught sight of us, and laughed,
and leaning over to Miss Howe, whispered in her ear. She was a crazy
girl. At once I got up and came across to them, panic-stricken, hating
her. I had to. I didn’t want him worried, and you never knew what
hateful thing the Baxter girl wouldn’t say, and think that she was
pleasing you.
But without knowing it, Anita helped me. Her voice, rising excitedly in
answer to some word of Mr. Flood’s, recalled the Baxter girl.
“Mystery? Of course there’s a mystery! She was at the height of her
promise in _Ploughed Fields_. It’s as good as _Eden Walls_ in matter
and, technically, better still. The third book ought to have settled her
place in modern literature for good and all. It ought to have been her
master-piece. But what does she do? We expect a chaplet of pearls, and
she gives us a daisy-chain. Isn’t that a mystery worth solving? Won’t
people read the _Life_ for that if for nothing else? Am I the only
person who has asked what happened to her between her second and her
third books?”
“I tell you, but you won’t listen,” Mr. Flood insisted. “Your romantic
has become a realist and is flying from it to the resting-place of
romance.”
“I do listen. Just so. You use your words and I use mine, but we mean
the same thing. She’s been bruising herself against facts. She has been
walled up by facts. Her vision is gone. Now what was, in her case, the
all-obscuring fact?”
“She was a woman,” said the blonde lady. “It could only be one thing.
Don’t I know the signs? She even lost her sense of humour.”
“Yes, she did, didn’t she?” cried the Baxter girl in a voice of relief.
“Oh, I remember one day, just before the engagement was announced——”
“As if that had anything to do with it,” said Anita scornfully.
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