Death -- Fiction; Friendship -- Fiction; Psychological fiction; Women novelists -- Fiction
She sat in the grass with the tall ox-eyes nodding at her elbow
and looked at him from under her hat with a little eased sigh.
This, after the dust of the journey, of the day, of her life,
was bliss. She prepared herself for this bliss, deliberately, as
she did everything. She was too poor and too hungry to be
wasteful of her happiness: she must have every crumb. Therefore
she had looked first at herself, critically, with her trained
eye, fingering the frill of her blouse, flinging a scatter of
skirt across her dusty city feet, lest her poverty should jar
his thoughts of her.
Then she looked at him. She saw him for a moment with undazzled
eyes, the blue sky enriched with clouds behind him. She was
saying to herself—‘I’m not a fool. I can see straight. I know
what he is. He’s just an ordinary man in a hot, black suit. He
stoops, I suppose. He’s worn out with work. He’ll never be young
again. And there’s nothing particular about him. Then what makes
me like him? But I do. I do. He has only to turn and smile at
me——’
Then he turned and smiled at her, and it seemed to her that the
glamour of the gilded day passed over and into him as he smiled,
glorifying him so that she caught her breath at his beauty. She
knew her happiness. She knew herself and him. He was the sum of
the blue sky and green, green grass, and the shining waters and
the flowers with their sweet smell, and the singing birds and
the hum of the little things of the air. All beauty was summed
up in him: he was food to her and sunshine and music: he was her
absolute good: and she thought that someone ought to see that
his socks were mended properly, for there was a great ladder
down one ankle, darned with wrong-coloured wool.
“Well?” She shut the book.
“I like it,” said the Baxter girl stubbornly.
Mr. Flood twisted uneasily in his seat.
“Oh, pretty, of course. Of course it’s pleasant enough in a way. But
Madala oughtn’t to be pretty. Think of the stuff she _can_ do.”
“But can’t you see,” Miss Howe broke in, “how it parodies the slush and
sugar school?”
Anita shook her head.
“She used another manner when she was ironical. I wish you were right.
Oh, you may be—I must consider—but I’m afraid that she is in earnest.
That phrase now—‘The green, green grass,’ (why double the adjective?)
‘the shining waters, the singing birds’—pitiful! And that
anti-climax—‘He was her absolute good: and she thought that someone
ought to see that his socks were mended properly.’ I ask you—is it art?”
“Not as serious work, of course,” said Miss Howe, “but——”
“I wish I could think so,” said Anita.
“Well, I wish I could do it,” said the Baxter girl. “What do you say,
Jenny?”
But it had brought back the country to me. It had brought back home. I
hadn’t anything to say to them.
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