Lewis looked at her with satirical bewilderment. He was a true Parisian,
whose egoism and adaptability would survive any trial. Living forcefully
and carelessly in a post-war world where everything is barter and
speculation, he had never put questions of this sort to himself. He
thought it sufficient, in order not to be a parasite, to pay one's taxes
and to have been a soldier. He wondered at Irene. He felt she was a
victim of that perfect honesty, that "demon of honesty" of which the
ancients talk, which dominates the construction of all Greek buildings
and enables them to endure: her life, like antiquity, was imbued with
the idea of "the law" which she never lost sight of Lewis was
ingenuously surprised that anyone could have simple, old-fashioned ideas
without being vulgar. He imagined that elegance was the exclusive
privilege of corrupt natures. A prey to similar prejudices, we have seen
that he had obstinately thrown himself into a kind of Jansenism of
immorality. The presence of Irene ought to have pulled him out.
Unfortunately, long years of uncontrolled power, both over himself and
over others, prevented him from believing or obeying, just as they
prevented him from reforming; he made no changes in his mode of life. He
did not attempt to make Irene respect him, well knowing that one is
loved chiefly for one's faults. So it was that he went on wasting his
substance. But the material perfection and the method of life which he
had brought to such a high pitch before his marriage, began to fail him.
Childish longings and hereditary nerves began to reassert themselves. He
was leading an unhealthy life.
One evening, after dinner, Lewis yawned.
"The 'Côtes de Gaillon' races are to-morrow," he said. "Are you
coming?"
"Our life is perfectly absurd," was all Irene replied.
VII
IN the weeks that followed, Irene seemed to grow much more cheerful. She
went out every morning early and only came back in time for lunch. Her
mail became more imposing daily. She no longer complained of feeling ill
or of putting on weight. There were frequent telephone calls for her: a
foreign voice would say: "Can Madame come to the téléfon?" and a long
conversation would follow. Lewis, jealous of his own liberty, tried to
appear to respect that of Irene; he avoided questioning her. Was it
family business, or merely trifles, or love affairs? He hated to think
about it. He never stopped being "worried" about it (the word takes on
such a tragic meaning in the mouths of habitually indifferent people).
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