England -- Fiction; Psychological fiction; Repression (Psychology) -- Fiction; Single women -- Fiction; Women -- England -- Fiction
And there was Lizzie’s friend, Sarah Barmby, who lived in one of those
little shabby villas on the London road and looked after her father.
She moved about the villa in an unseeing, shambling way, hitting herself
against the furniture. Her face was heavy with a gentle, brooding
goodness, and she had little eyes that blinked and twinkled in the
heaviness, as if something amused her. At first you kept on wondering
what the joke was, till you saw it was only a habit Sarah had. She came
when she could spare time from her father.
Next to Lizzie, Harriett loved Sarah. She loved her goodness.
And Connie Hancock, bouncing about hospitably in the large, rich house.
Tea-parties and dances at the Hancocks’.
She wasn’t sure that she liked dancing. There was something obscurely
dangerous about it. She was afraid of being lifted off her feet and
swung on and on, away from her safe, happy life. She was stiff and
abrupt with her partners, convinced that none of those men who liked
Connie Hancock could like her, and anxious to show them that she didn’t
expect them to. She was afraid of what they were thinking. And she would
slip away early, running down the garden to the gate at the bottom of
the lane where her father waited for her. She loved the still coldness
of the night under the elms, and the strong, tight feel of her father’s
arm when she hung on it leaning towards him, and his “There we are”
as he drew her closer. Her mother would look up from the sofa and ask
always the same question, “Well, did anything nice happen?”
Till at last she answered, “No. Did you think it would, Mamma?”
“You never know,” said her mother.
“_I_ know everything.”
“_Every_thing?”
“Everything that could happen at the Hancocks’ dances.”
Her mother shook her head at her. She knew that in secret Mamma was
glad; but she answered the reproof.
“It’s mean of me to say that when I’ve eaten four of their ices. They
were strawberry, and chocolate and vanilla, all in one.”
“Well, they won’t last much longer.”
“Not at that rate,” her father said.
“I meant the dances,” said her mother.
And sure enough, soon after Connie’s engagement to young Mr.
Pennefather, they ceased.
And the three friends, Connie and Sarah and Lizzie, came and went. She
loved them; and yet when they were there they broke something, something
secret and precious between her and her father and mother, and when
they were gone she felt the stir, the happy movement of coming together
again, drawing in close, close, after the break.
“We only want each other.” Nobody else really mattered, not even
Priscilla Heaven.
Year after year the same. Her mother parted her hair into two sleek
wings; she wore a rosette and lappets of black velvet and lace on a
glistening beetle-backed chignon. And Harriett felt again her shock of
resentment. She hated to think of her mother subject to change and time.
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