Life and Gabriella: The Story of a Woman's CourageGlasgow, Ellen Anderson Gholson
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Life and Gabriella: The Story of a Woman's Courage
Glasgow, Ellen Anderson Gholson
Man-woman relationships -- Fiction; Virginia -- Fiction
"Well, we'll send some upstairs to Miss Jemima. Do you know she had to
have the doctor this morning? I met him as I was going out, and he said
he was sorry to hear I was going to leave Richmond. I can't imagine
where on earth he could have heard it, for I haven't mentioned it to a
soul except Lydia Peyton. Yes, I believe I did speak of it to Bessie
Spencer at the meeting of the Ladies' Aid Society the other day. Where
are you going, Gabriella? Would you mind putting my bonnet in the
bandbox?"
No, Gabriella wouldn't mind, and taking the folds of crape in her arms,
she went to get the green paper bandbox out of the closet. Though she
had sacrificed her happiness for her mother, she felt that it would be
impossible for her to listen with a smiling face to her innocent
prattle.
In the afternoon, when Mrs. Carr, with a small and inconspicuous basket
in her hand, had set out on her Sunday visit to the Old Ladies' Home,
and Marthy, attired in an apron with an embroidered bib, had taken the
jelly and syllabub upstairs to Miss Jemima, Gabriella sat down in her
mother's rocking-chair by the window, and tried desperately to be
philosophical. The sound of the old maids from the floor above
descending on their way to a funeral disturbed her for a minute, and she
thought with an extraordinary clearness, "That is what my life will be
if George never comes back. That is what it means to be old." And there
was a morbid pleasure in pressing this thought, like a pointed weapon,
into her heart. "That is all there will be for me--that will be my
life," she went on after an instant of throbbing anguish. "I had no
right to think of marriage with mother dependent on me, and the best
thing for me to do is to start again with Mr. Brandywine. George was
right in a way. Yes, it is hard on him, and I was wrong ever to think of
it--ever to let him fall in love with me." The mere thought that George
was right in a way gave her singular comfort, and while she dwelt on it,
the discovery seemed to throw a vivid light on the cause of the quarrel.
Of course, she had expected too much of him. It was natural that he
should not want to be burdened with her family. What she had looked upon
as selfishness was only the natural instinct of a man in love with a
woman. He had said that he wanted her to himself, and to want her to
himself appeared now to be the most reasonable desire in the world.
Yes, she had acquitted George; but, in acquitting him, it was
characteristic of her that she should not have yielded an inch of her
ground. She drew comfort from declaring him innocent, but it was the
tragic comfort of one who blesses while she renounces. George's
blamelessness did not alter in the least her determination to cling to
her mother.
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