“Mathematics,” I said, “is the only truth—mathematics in the larger
sense, which includes art, music, science——”
But the faith of her childhood was not to be limited to equations. At
luncheon, one day, we discussed the beauty of certain phrases,
especially those of the King James version of the Bible. She mentioned
the comfort and sheer loveliness of the words: “And underneath are the
everlasting arms.”
I agreed, but pessimistically added:
“The ghastly thing about it is, that they’re not there—that this tiny
pellet of a world is a part of no protecting consciousness—is drifting
unheeded through space.”
“But it holds to its orbit—keeps its place in the constellation.
Something sustains it.”
“A law—gravity, perhaps. Nothing that cares.”
“Oh, but there is—the arms are there—I am certain of it.”
She was interested in dreams. “I have dreamed things that happened;
sometimes soon after,” she once said, and added: “I have worked out
scenes in my sleep, and half-sleep, when my subconsciousness had full
control. And I have many times experienced something that I am sure I
had experienced before—possibly in a dream.”
“Science has accounted for that, rather prosaically, I believe.”
“Science is always accounting for things, and then by and by, it
accounts for them again, in another way.”
One day, when I was rather down, she said to me:
“I know all about how futile one’s work can seem—how inconsequential. So
many times last Spring I thought: ‘What am I doing this for? Dressing up
and pretending to be something I am not—selling myself to these people.
‘Vanya’ was a beautiful play, and I loved it ... but to do it publicly.
It was just offering oneself to be seen, for money. I never had quite
that feeling, doing the pictures. The audience was not present; we were
doing the picture primarily for ourselves—at least it seemed so—making a
panoramic painting, on a screen.”
One day I made use of the word “dooryard.” Surprisingly, I found it new
to her, but she liked the sound—the picture it conveyed. “When lilacs
last in the dooryard bloomed,” I quoted from Whitman. She thought it a
beautiful phrase.
* * * * *
In the article she had written for Oliver Sayler’s book, I read—as
already she had said to me:
I do not believe in the sound film. Something very right, very
true, very precious, was cut short on the verge of its ultimate
and certain perfection by the intrusion of spoken dialogue and by
the consequent throw-back of the cinema toward the theatre. The
silent film was slowly coming into its own as an independent art
which had nothing to do with the theatre, an art closely allied
with music, dependent on music, an art which visualized music,
creating independently to a certain point and completed thereafter
by music.
But then, one day, she said:
“The silent film came to an end none too soon; it had gone as far as it
could go.”
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