Under date of April 23d he writes: "Every hour, in this frightful
dungeon seems endless to me. For many weeks have I sat idle in this
durance, with no occupation but prayer and communion with God." His
appeals to civil authority and to the Primate of Hungary procured him no
redress, but only subjected him to additional annoyances and hardships.
His aged father, a man of four-score years, wept to see him, though of
sound understanding, locked up among madmen; and when urged to make his
son recant, would have nothing to do with it, and returned the same
day to his sorrowful home. As he had been notified that he was to be
imprisoned for life, he prayed most earnestly to the Father of mercies
for deliverance; and he was heard, for his prayers and endeavors wrought
together. The sinking of his health increased his efforts to escape;
for, though he feared not to die, he could not bear the thought of dying
imprisoned in a mad-house, where he knew that his enemies would take
advantage of his mortal weakness to administer their sacraments to him,
and give out that he had returned to the bosom of the church, or at
least to shave his head, that he might be considered as an insane
person, and his renunciation of Romanism as the effect of derangement
of mind. Several plans of escape were projected, all beset with much
difficulty and danger. The one he decided upon proved to be successful.
On Saturday, the 13th of October, at half-past nine in the evening, he
fastened a cord made of strips of linen to the grate of a window, which
grate did not extend to the top. Having climbed over this, he lowered
himself into a small court-yard. He had now left that part of the
establishment reserved for the insane, and was now in the cloistered
part where the brethren dwelt. But here his fortune failed him. He saw
at a distance a servant of the insane approaching with a light; and
with aching heart and trembling limbs, by a desperate effort, climbed
up again. He returned to his cell, concealing his cord, and laid himself
down to rest.
On the following Monday, he renewed his efforts to escape. He lowered
himself, as before, into the little court-yard; but being weak in health
and much shaken in his nervous system by all he had suffered in body and
mind, he was seized with palpitation of the heart and trembled all over,
so that he could not walk a step. He laid down to rest and recover his
breath. He felt as if he could get no further. "But," he says in his
affecting narrative, "My dear Saviour to whom I turned in this time of
need, helped me wonderfully. I felt now, more than ever in my life, His
gracious and comforting presence, and believed, in that dismal moment,
with my whole soul, His holy word;" "My grace is sufficient for thee;
for my strength is made perfect in weakness."
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