I there met ten other little girls, who, like myself, were compelled
to take upon themselves vows they did not understand, and thus, by an
apparently voluntary act, consign themselves to slavery for life. They
were all strangers to me, sent here, as I afterwards learned, from some
nunnery in Ireland, where they had friends who were too solicitous for
their welfare. The priests do not wish the nuns to see friends from the
world, and they will frame almost any plausible excuse to prevent it.
But when the friends become too urgent, as they sometimes do, and their
inventive powers are taxed too severely, or if the task of furnishing so
many excuses become too irksome, the poor hapless victims are sent
off to some other nunnery, and the friends are told that they were not
contented, and wished to go to some other place, and that they, generous
creatures that they are, have at length, after much solicitation, kindly
consented to their removal. And this too, when they know that these very
girls are grieving their lives away, for a sight of those dear friends,
who, they are confidently assured, are either dead, or have entirely
forgotten them! Can the world of woe itself furnish deceit of a darker
dye?
The Bishop led me up to the altar, and put a lighted candle into my
hand. He then went under the altar, on which a lighted candle was
placed, and soon returned followed by two little boys whom they called
apostles. They held, each, a lighted torch with which they proceeded to
light two more candles. On a table near the altar, stood a coffin, and
soon two priests entered, bearing another coffin, which they placed
beside the other. A white cloth was spread over them, and burning
candles placed at the head and foot. These movements frightened me
exceedingly, for I thought they were going to kill me.
Forgetting in my terror that I was not allowed to speak, I asked the
Bishop if he was going to kill me. "Kill you!" he exclaimed, "O no;
don't be frightened; I shall not hurt you in the least. But it is our
custom, when a nun takes the veil, to lay her in a coffin to show that
she is dead to the world. Did not St. Bridget tell you this?" I told him
she did not, but I did not dare to tell him that I supposed she felt
so bad when she found I must leave her, that she entirely forgot it. He
then asked very pleasantly, which of the two coffins I liked the best,
saying I could have my choice. I replied, "I have no choice." This was
true, for although he assured me to the contrary, I still believed he
was about to kill me, and I cared very little about my coffin. They were
both large enough for a grown person, and beautifully finished, with a
large silver plate on the lid. The Bishop took me up in his arms, and
laid me in one of them, and bade me close my eyes.
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