Life in the sick-room : $b EssaysMartineau, Harriet
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Life in the sick-room : $b Essays
Martineau, Harriet
Conduct of life; Sick
A lesser danger is that of fearing to experience emotions. If a
barrel-organ makes itself heard from the street,--or a salute, on
anniversaries, from the castle,--or a crowd gathers on the ridge to
enjoy a regatta,--what a strange thrill comes over us! What a shrinking
from being moved! How we wonder when we recal some discourse, whereby
the voice of the preacher roused the souls of a multitude at once,--or
when we awake within us the echoes of some Easter anthem, or of the
Hallelujah Chorus in Westminster Abbey,--or when we image to ourselves a
crowded theatre, when one tragic fear or horror bound together all the
spirits that came for pleasure! When we try to imagine a flow of talk in
which minds uttered themselves without thought of individuals;--when we
revive these scenes of our former lives, we gasp for breath,--we wonder
what we could have been made of to endure the excitement;--we are
certain that we should die on the spot if we encountered it now. It
might be so: but we must remember that our present condition is the
morbid one, and not the former. We must keep up our sympathies, as far
as we may, by cherishing such festal feelings as may survive; and ever
remembering that our grave, and solid, and abstract life is adapted to
only a portion of our nature, and that our exclusion from spontaneous
emotions,--from all experience of sympathetic transport,--is a heavy
misfortune, under which it behoves us to humble ourselves.
Those of us are well off who have, like myself, the advantage of some
outward symbol which serves as communication between them and the world.
Flags are my resource of this kind. Little do those who hoist them
imagine how a hidden invalid appropriates their signals! The Union Jack
on the flag-staff, in the castle-yard, marks Sunday to me in a way I
would not miss. When I look abroad on Sabbath mornings, it tells of rest
and church-going; and it is a matter of serious business with me to see
it brought down at sunset,--a mute token in which there is more pathos
than I could tell. And then the flags on the churches of the opposite
shore on festal days tell me of a stirring holiday world,--make me hear
again the Park and Tower guns,--show me fireworks and illuminations, and
arouse something of the hum and buzz of a gay and moving crowd. Once
more, the foreign flags hoisted by ships coming into port,--mere
signals for pilots in intention,--speak, unknown to any one, a world of
things to me. I learned them long ago, by heart, and with my heart. When
I see a foreign vessel come bounding towards the harbour, and perceive,
the moment she hoists her flag, whether she has cut across from a Norway
fiord, or has contested her way from the Levant, or found a path from
the far Indies, or brings greetings from some familiar American
port,--what a boon is that flag to me! Sometimes I point my telescope,
to see the sailors’ lips move in the utterance of a foreign tongue: at
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