This new life, this earthly but celestial world is the Kingdom of
Heaven, and to bring about the Kingdom we must transfigure and deify
ourselves; become like God, imitate God. The secret of the imitation of
God is love, the certain way of the transfiguration is love, love of man
for man, love for friend and enemy. If this love is impossible, our
salvation is impossible. If it is repugnant, it is a sign that happiness
is repugnant to us. If it is absurd, our hopes of redemption are only
absurdity. Common sense tells us that to love our enemies is insanity,
and to count such love as a prerequisite of our salvation seems simple
madness. Love for enemies is like hatred for ourselves; hence it follows
that we can only earn beatitude by hating ourselves.
This conclusion should alarm no one, for it has been proved; all the
experiments have been tried. It is not true that there has been no time
to test it. For thousands of years we have been proving and proving it,
over and over. We have tried the experiment of fierceness; and blood
answered blood. We have tried the experiment of lust; and lust has left
in the mouth the odor of corruption and a fiercer fever. We have forced
the body into the most refined and perverse pleasures and found
ourselves worn out and heavy-hearted, lying upon filth. We have tried
the experiment of the Law, and we have not obeyed the Law; we have
changed it and disobeyed it again, and Justice has not satisfied our
hearts. We have tried the experiment of intellectualism, we have taken
the census of creation, numbered the stars, described the plants, the
dead things and the living things, we have bound them together with the
thin threads of abstract ideas, we have transfigured them in the magic
clouds of metaphysics; and at the end of all this, things have remained
the same, eternally the same; they were not enough for us, they could
not be renewed; their names and their numbers did not quiet our hunger,
and the most learned men ended with weary confessions of ignorance. We
have tried the experiment of art and our feebleness has brought the
strongest to despair, because the Absolute cannot be fixed in any form;
the Many overflow from the One; the carefully wrought work of art cannot
arrest the ephemeral. We have tried the experiment of wealth and have
found ourselves poorer; the experiment of force and have come to
ourselves, weaker. In no thing has our soul found quiet. We have found
no welcoming shade, where our bodies can lie down and be at rest; and
our hearts, always seeking, always disappointed, are older, weaker, and
emptier because in nothing have they found peace, because no pleasure
has brought them joy, no conquest, happiness.
THE LAST EXPERIMENT
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