Returned to his senses, he said to himself, “How many hired servants of
my father’s have bread enough and to spare, and I perish with hunger!”
Until now he had brushed away the idea of going home as soon as it had
appeared. How could he bear to go back in this condition and give in to
his brother after having despised his home, after having made his father
weep? To return without a garment, unshod, without a penny, without the
ring—the sign of liberty—uncomely, disfigured by this famished slavery,
stinking and contaminated by this abominable trade, to show that the
wise old neighbors were right, that his serious-minded brother was
right, to bow himself at the knee of the old man whom he had left
without a greeting, to return with opprobrium as a ragged fellow to the
spot from which he had departed as a king! To come back to the
soup-plate into which he had spit—into a house which contained nothing
of his!
No, there was something of his always in his home, his father! If he
belonged to his father, his father belonged also to him. He was his
creation, made of his flesh, issued from his seed in a moment of love.
Though hurt, his father would never drive away his own flesh and blood.
If he would not take him back as son, at least he would take him back as
a hired servant, as he would any stranger, like a man born of another
father. “I will arise and go to my father, and will say unto him,
Father, I have sinned against heaven and before thee, And am no more
worthy to be called thy son: make me as one of thy hired servants.” I do
not come back as son but as servant, a worker, and I do not ask love
from you, for I have no more right to that, but only a little bread from
your kitchen.
And the young man gave back the hogs to his master, and went towards his
own land. He begged a piece of bread from the country people, and wept
salt tears as he ate this bread of pity and charity in the shadow of the
sycamores. His sore and blistered feet could scarcely carry him. He was
barefoot now, but his faith in forgiveness led him homeward step by
step.
And finally one day at noon he arrived in sight of his father’s house;
but he did not dare to knock, nor to call any one, nor to go in. He hung
around outside to see if any one would come out. And behold, his father
appeared on the threshold. His son was no longer the same, was changed,
but the eyes of a father even dimmed by weeping could not fail to
recognize him. He ran towards him and caught him to his breast, and
kissed him and kissed him again, and could not stop from pressing his
pale, old lips on that ravaged face, on those eyes whose expression was
altered but still beautiful, on that hair, dusty but still waving and
soft, on that flesh that was his own.
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