Life of Father Ignatius of St. Paul, Passionist (The Hon. & Rev. George Spencer).Pius a Sp. Sancto (Pius a Spiritu Sancto)
Religion
Life of Father Ignatius of St. Paul, Passionist (The Hon. & Rev. George Spencer).
Pius a Sp. Sancto (Pius a Spiritu Sancto)
Passionists; Spencer, George, 1799-1864
in any other way the utter corruption of my morals, at least the
filling of my mind with familiar images of all the most foul
iniquity? For, alas! where is the child from the age of eight till
twelve who, without one compassionate friend, already strong in
virtue to countenance and to encourage him, shall maintain the
profession of modesty and holiness against a persecution as
inveterate and merciless in its way as that which Lot had to bear at
Sodom? Was not the angel of God with me when He preserved me for so
long from all attacks of this kind in such a place as Eton was in my
time? How can I remember Godley but with veneration and gratitude,
who, though, it may be, not so considerately and wisely as might be
possible (for who is as wise as he might be?), kept me, I might say,
almost alone untainted in the midst of so much corruption.
"Yet, till the last year of my stay with him, I did not learn
decidedly to love religion. It was still my task and not my
pleasure. At length, my brother Frederick being gone to sea, and two
other boys, Mr. Godley's stepsons, who were with us under his
instructions, being sent to school elsewhere, I remained his only
pupil, and, I may almost say, his chief care and joy. He felt with
me and for me in the desolation of my little heart, at being parted
from my first and hitherto inseparable mate, and I became his almost
constant companion. It is not difficult to gain the confidence of a
simple child: he spoke almost continually of religious subjects, and
I learnt to take his view of things. I certainly did not begin to
lose my pleasure in life. Death {9} was an idea which still was
strange to me; and I did not come to an understanding of the great
doctrines of Revelation. I remember not to have taken much notice of
any peculiar articles of faith; but still believed implicitly,
without argument or inquiry, what I was taught. I can now hardly
give an account of what were the religious ideas and impressions
which began so greatly to engage my mind, except that I took my
chief delight in hearing Mr. Godley speak about religion, that I had
a great abhorrence and dread of wickedness, thought with pleasure of
my being intended to be a clergyman, as I was always told I should
be, and admired and loved all whom I was taught to look upon as
religious people. All these simple feelings of piety, which were
often accompanied with pure delight, were greatly increased in a
visit of six weeks which I paid, with Mr. Godley, to his mother and
sisters at Chester. He was a Prebendary of that cathedral, and of
course had to spend some time there every year in residence.
Usually, when he went from home, from time to time, he was used to
get one of the other tutors at Eton to hear my brother's and my
lessons, and to look over our exercises; but in the last summer I
staid with him, with my father's consent, he took me with him. Mr.
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