Life's Handicap: Being Stories of Mine Own PeopleKipling, Rudyard
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Life's Handicap: Being Stories of Mine Own People
Kipling, Rudyard
India -- History -- British occupation, 1765-1947 -- Fiction; India -- Social life and customs -- Fiction; Short stories, English
‘A place,--a place down there,’ said Hummil, with simple sincerity. The
drug was acting on him by waves, and he was flung from the fear of a
strong man to the fright of a child as his nerves gathered sense or were
dulled.
‘Good God! I’ve been afraid of it for months past, Spurstow. It has
made every night hell to me; and yet I’m not conscious of having done
anything wrong.’
‘Be still, and I’ll give you another dose. We’ll stop your nightmares,
you unutterable idiot!’
‘Yes, but you must give me so much that I can’t get away. You must make
me quite sleepy,--not just a little sleepy. It’s so hard to run then.’
‘I know it; I know it. I’ve felt it myself. The symptoms are exactly as
you describe.’
‘Oh, don’t laugh at me, confound you! Before this awful sleeplessness
came to me I’ve tried to rest on my elbow and put a spur in the bed to
sting me when I fell back. Look!’
‘By Jove! the man has been rowelled like a horse! Ridden by the
nightmare with a vengeance! And we all thought him sensible enough.
Heaven send us understanding! You like to talk, don’t you?’
‘Yes, sometimes. Not when I’m frightened. THEN I want to run. Don’t
you?’
‘Always. Before I give you your second dose try to tell me exactly what
your trouble is.’
Hummil spoke in broken whispers for nearly ten minutes, whilst Spurstow
looked into the pupils of his eyes and passed his hand before them once
or twice.
At the end of the narrative the silver cigarette-case was produced,
and the last words that Hummil said as he fell back for the second time
were, ‘Put me quite to sleep; for if I’m caught I die,--I die!’
‘Yes, yes; we all do that sooner or later,--thank Heaven who has set a
term to our miseries,’ said Spurstow, settling the cushions under the
head. ‘It occurs to me that unless I drink something I shall go out
before my time. I’ve stopped sweating, and--I wear a seventeen-inch
collar.’ He brewed himself scalding hot tea, which is an excellent
remedy against heat-apoplexy if you take three or four cups of it in
time. Then he watched the sleeper.
‘A blind face that cries and can’t wipe its eyes, a blind face that
chases him down corridors! H’m! Decidedly, Hummil ought to go on leave
as soon as possible; and, sane or otherwise, he undoubtedly did rowel
himself most cruelly. Well, Heaven send us understanding!’
At mid-day Hummil rose, with an evil taste in his mouth, but an
unclouded eye and a joyful heart.
‘I was pretty bad last night, wasn’t I?’ said he.
‘I have seen healthier men. You must have had a touch of the sun. Look
here: if I write you a swingeing medical certificate, will you apply for
leave on the spot?’
‘No.’
‘Why not? You want it.’
‘Yes, but I can hold on till the weather’s a little cooler.’
‘Why should you, if you can get relieved on the spot?’
‘Burkett is the only man who could be sent; and he’s a born fool.’
‘Oh, never mind about the line. You aren’t so important as all that.
Wire for leave, if necessary.’
Hummil looked very uncomfortable.
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