East End (London, England) -- Fiction; London (England) -- Social conditions -- Fiction; Social settlements -- Fiction
“I have given Jack up,” said Muriel wearily, “because Edith le
Mentier——” she stopped. “Oh, I can’t explain,” she murmured. “The
words don’t mean anything, but—but, Cynthia, I couldn’t marry a man who
had once loved, or thought he loved, that woman. I could not trust a man
whom I felt was weaker than I. If I had children——” she paused again.
“You see I knew a woman who married, and the man was a dear fellow; but
he had been weak, and the strain was in him—and he was weak again. When
I was engaged to Alec Bruce she said to me, ‘It’s not of so much
importance to avoid bad men—they’re danger signals we aren’t blind
to—but for God’s sake never marry a weak one.’” Muriel caught her
breath with a little dry sob.
“Oh, you little idiot, you little idiot,” cried Cynthia with flashing
eyes. “What’s another woman’s, any woman’s, all other women’s experience
to one’s own heart? Love, and take the consequences—there’s nothing
else; it’s the only thing worth while. Why should you condemn yourself
and Jack to a death in life because of that wretched woman?—besides,
you don’t even know if it’s true! It’s madness, Muriel—madness. He’ll
marry somebody else, and turn out a mere do-nothing, and you’ll wear
your life out in another five years. And it’s all useless, reasonless,
cruel. And then you’ll pray for his soul, and expect me too, perhaps.
But I shan’t! Can’t you see you’re driving him back to her?”
Muriel dragged herself to her feet. “You forget I believe,” she said
very slowly, “in the life of the world to come.” Then covering her face
with her hands she burst into tears.
Cynthia Grant wrote that night to her brother: “I don’t know whether
it’s any use, Geoff, but she’s broken the whole business off between
herself and Jack Hurstly. She’s desperate, but determined. It’s all for
a mere nothing. I cannot understand her; but I won’t let her work
herself to death if I can help it. She was a fool ever to have cared for
him, and more of a fool not to have married him. It would be difficult
to know which we do more harm with, we women, our hearts or our
souls—‘Where a soul may be discerned.’”
But Muriel was on her knees all night praying that he might live and she
might be forgiven.
CHAPTER XVI
“If Winter come, can Spring be far behind!”
IT was a day when all hope of spring was left behind—withered in a
black northeaster—when every one unfortunate enough to be in England
longs for the south of France, and every one who has been out of England
compares it unfavorably with other climates.
Cynthia had left Muriel with a frightful cold and the club accounts, and
had gone out to buy her some violets. They had heard that morning from
Mary Huntly that Jack was recovering, though the fever resulting from
the accident had necessitated sick leave. He would probably have got
Muriel’s letter by now. Cynthia looked longingly at some impossibly
expensive roses, when she heard a man’s voice behind her.
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