French fiction -- 20th century; World War, 1914-1918 -- Fiction
The horse has not stopped bleeding. Its blood falls on me drop by drop
with the regularity of a clock,--as though all the blood that is
filtering through the strata of the field and all the punishment of the
wounded came to a head in him and through him. Ah, it seems that truth
goes farther in all directions than one thought! We bend over the
wrong that animals suffer, for them we wholly understand.
Men, men! Everywhere the plain has a mangled outline. Below that
horizon, sometimes blue-black and sometimes red-black, the plain is
monumental!
CHAPTER XV
AN APPARITION
I have not changed my place. I open my eyes. Have I been sleeping? I
do not know. There is tranquil light now. It is evening or morning.
My arms alone can tremble. I am enrooted like a distorted bush. My
wound? It is that which glues me to the ground.
I succeed in raising my face, and the wet waves of space assail my
eyes. Patiently I pick out of the earthy pallor which blends all
things some foggy shoulders, some cloudy angles of elbows, some
hand-like lacerations. I discern in the still circle which encloses
me--faces lying on the ground and dirty as feet, faces held out to the
rain like vases, and holding stagnant tears.
Quite near, one face is looking sadly at me, as it lolls to one side.
It is coming out of the bottom of the heap, as a wild animal might.
Its hair falls back like nails. The nose is a triangular hole and a
little of the whiteness of human marble dots it. There are no lips
left, and the two rows of teeth show up like lettering. The cheeks are
sprinkled with moldy traces of beard. This body is only mud and
stones. This face, in front of my own, is only a consummate mirror.
Water-blackened overcoats cover and clothe the whole earth around me.
I gaze, and gaze----
I am frozen by a mass which supports me. My elbow sinks into it. It
is the horse's belly; its rigid leg obliquely bars the narrow circle
from which my eyes cannot escape. Ah, it is dead! It seems to me that
my breast is empty, yet still there is an echo in my heart. What I am
looking for is life.
The distant sky is resonant, and each dull shot comes and pushes my
shoulder. Nearer, some shells are thundering heavily. Though I cannot
see them, I see the tawny reflection that their flame spreads abroad,
and the sudden darkness as well that is hurled by their clouds of
excretion. Other shadows go and come on the ground about me; and then
I hear in the air the plunge of beating wings, and cries so fierce that
I feel them ransack my head.
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