London (England) -- Fiction; Man-woman relationships -- Fiction; Women -- Fiction
"But she oughtn’t to be here!" Lilian exclaimed.
"No!" Gertie agreed with a surprising sternness that somewhat altered
Lilian’s estimate of her. "No! And she isn’t _going_ to be here,
either! Not if I know it! I shall see that she gets back home at
lunch-time. She’s quarrelled already with Mr. Grig this morning about
her coming up."
"Do you mean at home they quarrelled?"
"Yes. He got so angry that he said if she came he wouldn’t. He was
quite right to be angry, of course. But she came all the same."
"Miss G. must have told Gertie all that herself," Lilian reflected.
"She’d never be as confidential with me. She’d never tell me anything!"
And she had a queer feeling of inferiority.
"We must do all we can to help things," said Gertie.
"Of course!" agreed Lilian, suddenly softened, overcome by a rush of
sympathy and a strong impulse to behave nobly, beautifully, forgivingly
towards Miss G.
Nevertheless, though it was Gertie’s attitude that had helped to inspire
her, she still rather disdained the virtuous senior. Lilian appreciated
profoundly--perhaps without being able to put her feeling into
words--the heroic madness of Miss G. in defying common sense and her
brother for the sake of the beloved business. But Gertie saw in Miss
G.’s act nothing but a piece of naughty and sick foolishness. To Lilian
Miss G. in her superficial yearning softness became almost a terrible
figure, a figure to be regarded with awe, and to serve as an exemplar.
But in contemplating Miss G. Lilian uneasily realized her own
precariousness. Miss G. was old and plain (save that her eyes had
beauty), and yet was fulfilling her great passion and was imposing
herself on her environment. Miss G. was _doing_. Lilian could only
_be_; she would always remain at the mercy of someone, and the success
which she desired could last probably no longer than her youth and
beauty. The transience of the gifts upon which she must depend
frightened her--but at the same time intensified anew her resolves. She
had not a moment to lose. And Gertie, standing there close to her,
sweet and reliable and good, in the dull cage, amid the daily
circumstances of their common slavery, would have understood nothing of
Lilian’s obscure emotion.
III
Shut
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