What, above every other sensation, oppressed her was a feeling of
terrific loneliness--the familiar isolation magnified until it was past
bearing. Yet, there was Arnaud, infallible in his tender comprehension,
she ought to go to him at once and find support. But it was impossible;
all that he could give her was, to her special necessity, useless. She
had never been able to establish herself in his sympathy; the reason for
that lay in the fact that she could bring nothing similar in return.
The room--except for the timed clangor of the electric cars, like the
measure of lost minutes--was quiet. The photograph of Bartram Hallet in
cricketing clothes had faded until it was almost indistinguishable. Soon
the faint figure would disappear entirely, as though the picture were
amenable to the relentless principle operating in her.
The peace about her finally lessened her acute suffering, stilled her
heart. She told herself with a show of vigor that she was a coward, a
charge that roused an unexpected activity of denial. She discovered that
cowardice was intolerable to her. What had happened, too, was so far out
of her hands that a trace of philosophical acceptance, recognition, came
to her support. The loveliest woman alive must do the same, meet in a
looking-glass--that eternal accompanying sibyl--her disaster. She rose,
her lips firmly set, composed and pale, and returned to the neglected
flowers in the library.
Vigné entered and put an affectionate arm about her shoulders,
repeating--unconscious that Linda had heard the discussion which had
given it being--the conviction that her mother was wonderful, specially
in the black dinner dress with the girdle of jet. With no facility of
expression she gave her daughter's arm a quick light pressure.
From then she watched the slow progress of age with a new realization,
but an unabated distaste and, wherever it was possible, a determined
artifice. Arnaud had failed swiftly in the past months; and, while she
was inspecting the impaired supports of an arbor in the garden, he came
to her with an unopened telegram. “I abhor these things,” he declared
fretfully; “they are so sudden. Why don't people write decent letters
any more! It's like the telephone.... Good manners have been ruined.”
She tore open the envelope, read the brief line within, and, a hand
suddenly put out to the arbor, sank on its bench. There had been rain,
but a late sun was again pouring over the sparkling grass, and robins
were singing with a lyrical clearness. “What is it?” Arnaud demanded
anxiously, tremulous in the unsparing sunlight. She replied:
“Dodge died this morning.”
His concern was as much for her as for Pleydon's death. “I'm sorry,
Linda,” his hand was on her shoulder. “It is a shock to you. A fine man,
a genius--none stronger in our day. When you were young and for so
long after.... I was lucky, Linda, to get you; have you all this while.
Nothing in Pleydon's life, not even his success, could have made up for
your loss.”
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