Linda had the feeling that she was engaged in a struggle with time, a
ruthless antagonist whom she viewed with a personal enmity. Time must,
would, of course, triumph in the end; but there would be no sign of her
surrender in the meanwhile; she wouldn't bend an inch, relinquish by a
fraction the pride and delicacy of her person. The skilful dyeing of
her hair to its old absolute blackness, as natural and becoming in
appearance as ever, was a symbol of her determination to cheat an
intolerable tyranny.
The process, dismaying her soul, she bore with a rigid fortitude; as she
endured the coldness of a morning bath from which, often, she was slow
to react. This, to her, was widely different from the futile efforts
of her mother, those women of the past, to preserve for practical ends
their flushes of youth and exhilaration. She felt obscurely that she was
serving a deeper reality created by the hands of Pleydon, Arnaud's
faith and pure pleasure, all that countless men had seen in her for
admiration, solace and power.
But it was inevitable, she told herself bitterly, that she should
hear the first intimation of her decline from Jean Hallet. Rather, she
overheard it, the discussion of her, from the loiterers at breakfast
as she moved about the communicating library. Jean's emphatic slightly
rough-textured voice arrested her in the arrangement of a bowl of
zinnias:
“You can't say just where she has failed, but it's evident. Perhaps a
general dryness. Perfectly natural. Thoroughly silly to fight against
it--” Vigné interrupted her. “I think mother's wonderful. I can't
remember any other woman nearly her age who looks so enchanting in the
evening.”
Linda quietly left the flowers as they were and went up to the room that
had been her father's. It was now used as a spare bedroom; and she had
turned into it, in place of her own chamber, instinctively, without
reason. She had kept it exactly as it had been when Amelia Lowrie first
conducted her there, as it was when her father, a boy, slept under the
white canopy.
Linda advanced to the mirror; and, her hands so tightly clenched that
the finger-nails dug into the palms, forced herself to gaze steadily
at the wavering reflection. It seemed to her that there had been a
malicious magic in Jean's detraction; for immediately, as though the
harm had been wrought by the girl's voice, she saw that her clear
freshness had gone. Her face had a wax-like quality, the violet shadows
under her eyes were brown. Who had once called her a gardenia? Now she
was wilting--how many gardenias had she seen droop, turn brown. Her
heart beat with a disturbing echo in her ears, and, with a slight gasp
that resembled a sob, she sank on one of the uncomfortable painted
chairs.
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