“You have never been anyone else,” he asserted positively. “You were
born Linda Condon and you'll die that, except for some extraordinary
accident. I can't imagine what it would be--a miracle like quaker-ladies
in the Antarctic.”
“It sounds uncomplimentary, and I'm sick of being compared with polar
places. What are quaker-ladies?”
“Fragile little flowers in the spring meadows.”
“I'd rather listen to the music than you.”
“That is why loving you is so eternal, why it doesn't fluctuate like a
human emotion. You can't exhaust it and rest before a new tide sweeps
back; the timeless ecstasy of a worship of God ... breeding madness.”
She failed to understand and turned a troubled gaze to his bitter
repression. “I don't like to make you unhappy, Dodge,” she said in a low
tone. “What can I do? I am a horrid disappointment to all of you, but
most to myself. I can't go over it again.”
“Beauty has nothing to do with happiness,” he declared harshly. He rose,
without consulting her wishes; and Linda followed him as he proceeded
above, irresistibly drawn to the bronze he was showing in the Rotunda.
It was the head and part of the shoulders of a very old woman,
infinitely worn, starved by want and spent in brutal labor. There was a
thin wisp of hair pinned in a meager knot on her skull; her bones were
mercilessly indicated, barely covered with drum-like skin; her mouth
was stamped with timid humility; while her eyes peered weakly from their
sunken depths.
“Well?” he demanded, interrogating her in the interest of his work.
“I--I suppose it's perfectly done,” she replied, at a loss for a
satisfactory appreciation. “It's true, certainly. But isn't it more
unpleasant than necessary?” Pleydon smiled patiently. “Beauty,” he said,
with his mobile gesture. “Pity, _Katharsis_--the wringing out of all
dross.”
The helpless feeling of her overwhelming ignorance returned. She was
like a woman held beyond the closed door of treasure. “Come over here.”
He unceremoniously led her to the modeling of a ruffled grouse, faithful
in every diversified feather. Linda thought it admirable, really
amazing; but he dismissed it with a passionate energy. “The dull
figuriste!” he exclaimed. “Daguerre. Once I could have done that, yes,
and been entertained by its adroitness and insolence--before you made
me. Do you suppose I was able then to understand the sheer
tragic fortitude to live of a scrubwoman! The head you thought
unpleasant--haven't you seen her going home in the March slush of a
city? Did you notice the gaps in her shoes, the ragged shawl about a
body twisted with forty, fifty, sixty years of wet stone floors and
steps? Did you wonder what she had for supper?”
“No, Dodge, I didn't. They always make me wretched.”
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