Germany -- Social life and customs -- 19th century -- Fiction
Linda Tressel, before she had gone to bed on that night which she
had passed at Augsburg, had written a short note which was to be
delivered, if such delivery should be possible, to Ludovic Valcarm.
The condition of her lover had, of course, been an added trouble to
those which were more especially her own. During the last three or
four hours which she had passed with him in the train her tenderness
for him had been numbed by her own sufferings, and she had allowed
herself for a while to think that he was not sufficiently alive to
the great sacrifice she was making on his behalf. But when he was
removed from her, and had been taken, as she well knew, to the prison
of the city, something of the softness of her love returned to her,
and she tried to persuade herself that she owed to him that duty
which a wife would owe. When she spoke to Fanny on the subject, she
declared that even if it were possible to her she would not go back
to Ludovic. "I see it differently now," she said; "and I see how bad
it is." But, still,--though she declared that she was very firm in
that resolve,--she did not like to be carried back to her old home
without doing something, making some attempt, which might be at least
a token to herself that she had not been heartless in regard to her
lover. She wrote therefore with much difficulty the following few
words, which Fanny promised that her husband should endeavour to
convey to the hands of Ludovic Valcarm:
DEAR LUDOVIC,--My aunt has come here for me, and takes
me back to Nuremberg to-morrow. When you left me at the
station I was too ill to go to the place you told me; so
they sent to this house, and my dear, dear friend Fanny
Heisse got her husband to come for me, and I am in their
house now. Then my aunt came, and she will take me home
to-morrow. I am so unhappy that you should be in trouble!
I hope that my coming with you did not help to bring it
about. As for me, I know it is best that I should go back,
though I think that it will kill me. I was very wicked to
come. I feel that now, and I know that even you will have
ceased to respect me. Dear Ludovic, I hope that God will
forgive us both. It will be better that we should never
meet again, though the thought that it must be so is
almost more than I can bear. I have always felt that I was
different from other girls, and that there never could
be any happiness for me in this world. God bless you,
Ludovic. Think of me sometimes,--but never, never, try to
come for me again.
L. T.
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