“None but the very same,
Which I on all mankind, were I, as he,
Fall’n to such deep reverse. His melody
Is interrupted; now we hear the din
Of madmen, shriek on shriek, again begin;
Let us now visit him: after this strain
He ever communes with himself again,
And sees and hears not any.”
Having said
These words, we called the keeper: and he led
To an apartment opening on the sea—
There the poor wretch was sitting mournfully
Near a piano, his pale fingers twined
One with the other; and the ooze and wind
Rushed through an open casement, and did sway
His hair, and starred it with the brackish spray:
His head was leaning on a music-book,
And he was muttering; and his lean limbs shook;
His lips were pressed against a folded leaf,
In hue too beautiful for health, and grief
Smiled in their motions as they lay apart,
As one who wrought from his own fervid heart
The eloquence of passion: soon he raised
His sad meek face, and eyes lustrous and glazed,
And spoke,—sometimes as one who wrote and thought
His words might move some heart that heeded not,
If sent to distant lands;—and then as one
Reproaching deeds never to be undone,
With wondering self-compassion; then his speech
Was lost in grief, and then his words came each
Unmodulated and expressionless,—
But that from one jarred accent you might guess
It was despair made them so uniform:
And all the while the loud and gusty storm
Hissed through the window; and we stood behind,
Stealing his accents from the envious wind,
Unseen. I yet remember what he said
Distinctly—such impression his words made.’
And casual illustrations—unconscious metaphors, showing a terrible
familiarity—are borrowed from insanity in his subsequent works.
This strange story is in various ways deeply illustrative of his
character. It shows how the impulsive temperament, not definitely
intending evil, is hurried forward, so to say, _over_ actions and crimes
which would seem to indicate deep depravity—which would do so in ordinary
human nature, but which do not indicate in it anything like the same
degree of guilt. Driven by singular passion across a tainted region, it
retains no taint; on a sudden it passes through evil, but preserves its
purity. So curious is this character, that a record of its actions may
read like a libel on its life.
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