The horse-chestnut in front of the house spread the shade of its large,
fingered leaves. Above him the beautiful white flowers, and thick, round
mass of foliage towered high overhead. He heard the sound of an opening
door which he knew well--and he smelt the peculiar smell of his own
home. He recognised the passage, the doors, everything, bit by bit--with
a keen pang of lost familiarity. It was all a part of his life--of his
lonely dreamy childhood. He had held council with all these things, had
lived with them his own life of thoughts--to which he had admitted no
human being. But now he felt himself dead, as it were, and cut off from
the old house, with its rooms and passages and doorways. The severance,
he knew, was irremediable, and he felt as melancholy and woeful as
though he had come to visit a graveyard. If only Presto had sprung out
to meet him, it would have been less dreary. But Presto, no doubt, was
gone or dead.
But where was his father?
He looked back through the open door out into the sunny garden, and saw
the man who, as he had fancied, was following them on the way, coming
towards the house. He came nearer and nearer, and seemed to grow in
stature as he approached. When he reached the door a vast cold shadow
filled the entrance. Then Johannes knew him.
There was perfect silence indoors, and they went up-stairs without
speaking. There was one step which always creaked under foot as Johannes
knew; and now he heard it creak three times with a sound like a groan of
pain. But under the fourth footstep it was like a deep sob.
Above stairs, Johannes heard moaning, as low and as regular as the slow
ticking of a clock. It was a heart-rending and doleful sound. The door
of his own little room stood open; he timidly glanced in. The strange
flowers on the curtains stared at him with unmeaning surprise. The clock
had stopped. They went on to the room whence the groaning came. It was
his father's bedroom. The sun shone in brightly, on the green
bed-curtains which were drawn close. Simon, the cat, sat on the
window-sill, in the sun. There was an oppressive smell of wine and
camphor; the low moaning now sounded close at hand.
Johannes heard whispering voices and carefully softened footsteps. Then
the green curtains were opened.
He saw his father's face, which had so often risen before him during the
last few weeks. But it was quite different. The kind, grave expression
had given way to a rigid look of suffering, and his face was ashy pale,
with brown shadows. The teeth showed through the parted lips, and the
white of the eyes under the half-closed lids. His head lay sunk in
pillows, and was lifted a little with every moaning breath, falling back
wearily after each effort.
Johannes stood by the bed without stirring, staring with wide fixed eyes
at the well-known features. He did not know what he thought; he dared
not move a finger, he dared not take the wan old hands, which lay limp
on the white linen sheet.
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