But Pluizer went close behind him and whispered sharply in his ear, as
was his wont--
'You cannot think? Did you fancy that you could not think? That is a
mistake. You must think. Staring out like this at the green grass and
the blue sky will do no good. Windekind will not come to you. And the
sick man is sinking fast; that you must have seen as clearly as we did.
But what is his disorder, do you think?'
'I do not know!--I do not want to know!'
Johannes said no more, but listened to the moaning; it sounded like a
gentle complaint and reproach. Doctor Cypher was taking notes in a book.
At the head of the bed sat the dark figure which had followed them in;
his head was bowed, his lean hand extended towards the sick man, and his
hollow eyes steadfastly gazing at the clock.
That sharp whisper in his ear began again.
'Why are you so unhappy, Johannes? You have got what you wished for.
There lie the sand-hills, there is the sunshine through the verdure,
there are the dancing butterflies, the singing birds. What more do you
want? Are you waiting for Windekind? If he exists anywhere, it must be
there. Why does he not come to you? He is frightened, no doubt, by our
dark friend by the bed. He always has been afraid of him. Don't you see,
Johannes, that it was all fancy? And listen to the moaning. It is weaker
than it was just now. You can hear that it will soon cease altogether.
Well, and what matter? Many folks must have groaned just so when you
were at play here among the wild roses. Why do you now sit here grieving
instead of going out to the sand-hills as you used to do? Look! Out
there everything is as flowery and fragrant as if nothing had happened.
Why do you care no more for all the gladness of that life?
'First you complained and longed to be here. Now I have brought you
where you yearned to be, and yet you are not content. See. I will let
you go--go out into the tall grass, lie in the cool shade, let the flies
hum about you, and breathe the perfume of growing herbs. You are free!
Go. Find Windekind once more. You will not? Then do you now believe in
me alone? Is all I have told you true? Am I or is Windekind the false
one?
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