18 November: To-day she started to rap nothing but nonsense; but in time it became more distinct, and ended up with "ich zaelen!" ( = I (wish to) count). I asked her if this was a fact--and she promptly said "No!" She then kept on making her usual sign that she wanted to go down into the yard, so I let her out, but soon she ran up again quite briskly, and at once rapped out clearly and distinctly.--"Warum ich und sie so rau geartet?" "Is this what you mean?" "Yes!" "And--who is si meant for?" "Heni!" "_What?_" I exclaimed, "you are suddenly addressing me as _sie_?!"[22] "Yes!" "But Lola! that is what we only say to people we don't know well! you have always called me _du_ because you were fond of me--isn't that so? are you saying _sie intentionally_ now?" "Yes!" "Yes? but why?" "Because strange!" "How _strange_?" "Yes!" "Was: warum ich und sie so rau reartet ( = why are I and you so roughly constituted?) the end of the sentence you began before?" "No." N.B. In this manner did she wish to lodge her complaint, so to speak, against me for not always understanding her when she prefers to try and "rub in" the meaning of her faulty spelling, by gazing at me in her "intent" fashion--indeed, I had always sensed her annoyance at times when she had not been able to gain her ends in this way! In simple matters, such as "wish to eat," or "go out," I could of course, guess her desires, but she was of opinion that I ought to be more "understanding" still--and this is difficult! [22] Sie = you is the more formal mode of address, as opposed to the familiar "du" = "thou." 1 December: "Lola, what will become of you when you are dead? what will become of your body?" "If..." "No; that is no answer! You are to spell properly!" "Zu esen fuer wurm" ( = food for worm.) "And, Lola ... your soul? do you know what that is?" "Ja, nur get in himmel!" ( = yes (it) only goes to heaven!) "Did you hear people say that?" "Yes!" From this it would seem that any seeking after the dog's own sensations on the subject are useless. By the way, some time before I had read Rolf's remark to her: "All tier hat seel, guck in aug" ( = all animals have souls, look in their eyes). And I then asked her: "Do you know what a soul is?" And she had said: "Yes." "Have I a soul?" "Yes!" "Has a stone one?" "No!" "And a horse?" "Yes!" "A bird?" "Yes!" "And water?" "No!" "Have all dogs?" "Yes!" Lola had rapped this all out very nicely, and I praised her, to which she made response by a little spontaneous rapping--"isan..." "What does that mean?" "ich o wi gluecklich!" ( = I, oh--how happy!) "Because I am pleased?" "Yes! yes!"