London's Heart: A NovelFarjeon, B. L. (Benjamin Leopold)
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London's Heart: A Novel
Farjeon, B. L. (Benjamin Leopold)
London (England) -- Fiction
He went into the passage, and called, "Lizzie, Lizzie!" receiving no
reply, however. He tapped at the door of the room next to the one
he occupied, and after a moment or two turned the handle; put the door
was locked. Disappointed, he returned to his own room, and wandered
about it in a restless, uncertain manner, as if, being alone, he did
not know what to do. Every now and then he came near to the bottle,
and sometimes turned his head resolutely from it, and sometimes could
not resist the temptation of gazing at it. "No," he said aloud once,
as if answering some inward questioning or argument; "no; I promised
Lizzie I wouldn't, and I won't. What is this?" He had laid the bottle
on a piece of folded paper, containing a key. "The key of her room.
Good girl, good girl!" He took his candle, and went into Lizzie's
room. It was in every respect more comfortable than his own, although
the furniture, with the exception of a smart little sewing-machine,
was of the same humble kind. There were two or three cheap ornaments
on the mantelshelf, the table could boast of a cover, and a carpet was
laid down which nearly covered the floor. "She can't have gone out
long," said Muzzy, who, having no one else to talk to, talked to
himself, in defiance of an old-fashioned proverb not very
complimentary to such self-communings. "She knew I would be home soon,
and thought I should like to sit here." On the table were some
needlework and a workbox, and behind the door hung a dress, which
Muzzy touched with his hand, as the most civilising influence within
his reach. A picture an the wall evidently possessed a fascination for
him, and presently he sat gazing at it, dreamily. It was the picture
of a woman's face, fair and comely, and the eyes seemed to follow his
as he gazed; but the reflections raised by the contemplation were not
pleasant ones, and he rose and walked about in the same restless,
uncertain manner. Soon he was in his own room again, and the bottle
was in his hand uncorked. "I could have kept from it if she had been
here," he muttered; "but how can I when I am alone--alone?" He
repeated the word two or three times with desolate distinctness.
"Alone--alone--always alone until she came! What should I do if she
went away? And she may--she may. That young fellow who comes to see
her so often--who is he, who is he? I wish he was dead, I mustn't go
into the room when he's there--Lizzie hasn't told me so, but I know I
mustn't. And there they sit, laughing and talking----Laughing and
talking! No, not always. He made her cry once; I heard her. I'll ask
Lizzie who he is. If he wants to take her away, I'd like to kill
him--secretly, secretly!" The feeble old man scowled as he said this,
and mechanically took a glass from the cupboard, and poured some gin
in it. But a restraining influence was upon him even then, and he did
not immediately raise it to his lips. "I promised her I wouldn't," he
said; "I swore I'd give it up. But how can I when I have no one to
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