So closely wrapped in his own thoughts was the lounger that it was
many seconds after they had been uttered before the words succeeded
in penetrating to his consciousness. The last sound of the youths’
trampling feet had died away at the end of the bridge before he woke up
sufficiently to ask himself with a resentful air: “What made him say
that?”
He found himself unable to dismiss the jeer from his mind, in which it
went on echoing with such tormenting insistence that at last he stood
up and shook himself, unconsciously making a physical effort to change
the pattern in the brain’s kaleidoscope.
But the suggestion which so irritated him was not to be got rid of
in that fashion. It chimed in too well with the whole tenor of his
meditation since he had found his way on to the bridge. The half-formed
questions which had been baffling his attempts to give them definite
shape now all at once began to come together and settle down into one
question, precipitated, as it were, by that profane mockery.
“Why,” he reflected, with a growing sense of anger at the
comparison--“why did he call me that?”
It was not because he attributed any serious intention to the jester
that he argued thus with himself. He was in that mood when everything
around us appears mysterious and fraught with some revelation to which
we only need a key. The words of the shop-boy became for him a hint
from the night itself, like the cryptic utterances of the characters in
a play of Maeterlinck’s.
“What likeness is there between Christ and me?” he went on, putting the
problem before himself more distinctly.
What likeness, indeed, between this spoilt child of civilization, to
whom the world seemed to have given of its best, for whom Christianity
could be no more than a legend, and that buffeted Redeemer hanging on
his gibbet in the Syrian sun of two thousand years ago?
And yet an insult cannot rankle unless it is barbed with truth. From
the inner cells of memory, where they had been stored up in past
days by a religious mother, certain words and phrases were already
coming forth, as though moved by some subtle affinity, to answer that
uncomfortable question.
_Despised and rejected of men_--they ran something like that. And
again: _Stricken, smitten of God, and afflicted_. There were other
words which should have followed, surely, but he tried in vain to draw
them forth.
_Despised and rejected of men._ The flush darkened on the young man’s
cheek as he flung back his head with a rebellious and angry glance at
the river’s northern bank, where the shining walls and towers of the
city of Ormuzd seemed to overhang the gulf--the glance which an exile
gives at the city which has driven him forth.
He had fled to the spot, stunned by one of those buffets which life is
ever waiting to deal to those who have not learnt their lesson aright.
And his ears still smarted with the scream of the newsboys who were
proclaiming in every street that Lord Alistair Stuart had failed.
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