... He knew better where to begin now. The beginning was not in New
York. The wallet was heavy upon him; he must not waste it; nor allow
it to waste itself through bad management. Auckland was a desirable
centre for the Stackhouse operations. He could travel forth from one
agency to another. The fundamental ideas of trade, together with large
knowledge of how trade should not be conducted, was his heritage from
Lot & Company. He would begin slowly and sincerely to work out his big
problems--holding the fruits loosely in his hands; ready to give them
up to another, if that other should appear; contenting himself only
with the simplest things; preparing always to be poorer, instead of
richer.... He would earn the right to be poor. The thought warmed him,
something of the natural strength of youth about it.
Standing out of the wind with an expensive cigar, a superb
course-dinner finished less than an hour back, Bellair smiled at the
ease of poverty, welcoming all the details of clean, austere denial.
Yet he was not so far from it as would appear. He had always taken
these matters of luxury and satiety with tentative grasp; even the
dinners of Stackhouse were but studies of life. His ideal was closely
adjusted to the Faraway Woman’s in these things. One of the dearest of
her sayings had to do with renting the two front rooms of the stone
cottage. Yet now he hoped furiously that she had not yet done so.
His thoughts turned again out among the Islands. He would meet the
agents of Stackhouse. They would be bewildered at first; they would
think he had come to peer and bite. He would lift and help and pass
on--making the circles again and again, gaining confidence, not saying
much. No, the thing he had in mind had little to do with words.... What
a masonry among men--here and there one giving his best secretly.
_No words about it._ Bellair halted and filled his lungs from the good
breeze. This thought had repeated itself like a certain bright pattern
through all the weave of his conception. It had a familiar look, and
a prod that startled him now. The whole meaning of it rushed home, so
that he laughed.
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