There was a composure about the mother, but he did not know if it were
stolidity or poise. Certainly she had known poverty, but health was
in her skin, and there was something in that white profile, that the
sun had touched with olive rather than tan, that stopped his look.
The perfection of it dismayed Bellair. He loved beauty, but did not
trust it, did not trust himself with it. The presence of a beautiful
face stimulated him as no wine could do, but it also started him to
idealising that which belonged to it, and this process had heretofore
brought disappointment. Bellair did not want this touch of magnetism
now. Beauty was plentiful. He had seen the profiles of Italian girls in
New York, that the Greeks would have worshipped, and which the early
worship of the Greeks was doubtless responsible for--beauty with little
beside but giggle and sham. He disliked the thing in a man’s breast
that answers so instantly to the line and colour of a woman’s face;
objected to it primarily, because it was one of the first and most
obvious tricks of nature for the replenishment of species in man and
below. Bellair fancied to answer the captivation, if any at all, of a
deeper wonder in woman than the contour of her countenance.
He was aware that many a woman has a beautiful profile, whose direct
look is a disturbing reconsideration. This kept his eyes down, when she
was opposite in the dining cabin. We are strangely trained at table;
at no time so merciful. The human dining countenance must be lovely,
indeed, not to break the laws of beauty. Only outright lovers dare, and
they are bewildered by each other, and see not. So he did not know the
colour of her eyes.
She nursed her baby often on deck, sitting bare-headed in the wind and
sun, sometimes singing to it. The singing was all her own; Bellair
wished she wouldn’t. Her melodies were foreign, and sometimes it
seemed to him as if they were just a touch off the key. Her low
dissonances, he described vaguely as Russian, but retained the
suspicion that she was tonally imperfect of hearing.
The singing and the picture of her was just as far as possible from
Bessie Brealt, but she made Bellair think. In all likelihood this was
the general objection. His eyes smarted in the dusks, as he thought of
the other singer (as solitary in New York as this woman here), who was
determined not to be afraid of the cars or the bears or the wolves.
Every day Bessie’s first words returned to him:
“A little Rhine wine--it’s very good here.”
Public-domain text, read in full here on John Shaqi.
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