Bellair placed her saying to the account of her fine zeal for the
good of the nearest. He was very far from seeing anything heroic in
his part of the ten days.... They had paused on the little hill back
of the settlement where she had lived. With all her coming home, she
met no acquaintance while he was with her. It was as if she had come
to look, not to enter.... But there were two days in which she went
forward alone, and Bellair got a foretaste of what it would mean to be
separated. It called to him all the strength that he had earned.... The
Faraway Woman came back to Hamilton where he waited--as one who had
hastened. The child was asleep, and they walked out into the streets
together....
They were alone again as in that first night on board the _Fomalhaut_
when Fleury left them.
“Do you want to stay to make your house near the Hamilton road?” he
asked.
She regarded him quietly, her eyes fixed upon his face with an
incommunicable yearning.
“No.”
“Do you mean to stay in New Zealand?”
Again she held him with her eyes, before answering:
“It may be well for me here, as anywhere. I could not stay in America.”
The sun was setting. It was she who broke the silence:
“_You_ must go away?”
“Yes. You knew that from _him_?”
“From what he said--yes.”
“He told me not to stay too long.”
“Perhaps he saw it all. Perhaps he saw something that would keep you.”
“He saw a very great deal.”
They had been gone two hours. Her steps quickened, when she thought
of the child.... “Yes, I may as well stay in Auckland,” she said.
“Do you know, I should like to stay by the sea--to be near it, for
remembering----”
That seemed to come very close to Bellair’s conviction--that her whole
life was turned to the saint who had passed.
“A little house by the sea,” he said, his mind picturing it eagerly to
relieve the greater matter.
“Just what I was thinking--a little place out of Auckland on the
bluffs--overlooking Waitemata--where one could see the ships coming
in----”
“Will you let me help you find it, and arrange your affairs?”
“Nothing could be happier for me--if you would.”
“We’ll go back to Auckland to-night, and start out looking from there.”
Mainly they followed the shore during their days of search; but
sometimes they found woods and little towns. There was no coming to
the end of her; she put on fresh perfections every day, and there were
moments in which he was meshed in his own stupidity for not seeing
the splendour of her at the first moment. He became possessed of a
healthful wonder about women--how men like himself wait for years for
some companion-soul, finally believing her to be in the sky, only to
find that _the nearest_ was waiting all the time. The world is so full
of illusions, and a man’s mind is darkest when it seems most clear.
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